https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=12190The most recent Blog Entries by the User "Casey" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1903341https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1903341you never really get the chance to do anything once you've entered the churn. day after day of working to cover yourself, to have a home, to be allowed a place in society. no time for much else other than feeling a constant fatigue and the inability to sleep it off. i suppose its better than the alternative. but, i'm so tired. so very, very tired.Fri, 05 Sep 2025 18:17:23 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1165886https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1165886Steve Albini passed today, of a heart attack, as I am writing this. 24 hours ago I saw him reply to someone on BlueSky about something I didn't really get, terms beyond my limited understanding, simple things really. It couldn't have been that long afterwards that he passed. It all comes at you so suddenly. I suppose it's never really hit me before, how sudden it all is, is why I'm writing this ri...Wed, 08 May 2024 18:42:47 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1146405https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1146405https://cat-machine.bandcamp.com/album/ghost https://cat-machine.bandcamp.com/album/ghost https://cat-machine.bandcamp.com/album/ghost https://cat-machine.bandcamp.com/album/ghost NEW MUSIC 31 TRACKS AMBIENT / VAPORWAVE / BROKEN TRANSMISSION / PLUNDERPHONICS / LSat, 06 Apr 2024 21:47:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1060475https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1060475everyone i know is nervous, sad, and poor they're too busy for life they have a job they're too stressed to live they lack a job they don't believe in the future except for a job they just want to exist they need a job some are too tired. some are too weak. some can't find the time. some have far too much time. and they keep saying, "I'll figure it out" but everyone i know is still nervous. but ev...Sun, 14 Jan 2024 07:44:55 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1001039https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1001039feelings are such a drag. emotions never really make sense to me anymore, not that they ever did to begin with, but now specifically feels like feelings never really got to know me. i dont know whats wrong with me. i feel stuck, unable to express anything i want to, fully incapable of holding meaningful conversations with those i want to with. when did this happen? a few months ago, circa septembe...Wed, 06 Dec 2023 05:58:40 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=959994https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=959994!! !!CONTENT WARNING!! !! The following chapter contains depictions of medical imagery, vomiting, blood, and self harm.Fri, 10 Nov 2023 00:05:49 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=590009https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=590009(between two people who don't exist.) content warning: suicidal allusions. Say we’re the last two people on Earth, ...What are you talking about? Just hypothetically speaking. Maybe we’re the last two survivors of some crazy apocalyptic event, Or one day we wake up and everybody else is just gone, Or we come into being one day on an empty planet without our memories, What wouldSun, 12 Feb 2023 01:25:22 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=583665https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=583665!! !!CONTENT WARNING!! !! The following chapter contains depictions of self harm, vomiting and suicidal ideation.Mon, 06 Feb 2023 11:27:04 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=529163https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=529163"Where are you going?" The figure turned around slowly, looking back at Marisa with an expressionless face. Their eyes were dark and empty, their lips curled upward into a forced smile. "I'm... leaving, I guess." Her sister replied after a moment. She looked down at the groSun, 04 Dec 2022 18:05:48 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=523785https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=523785!! !!CONTENT WARNING!! !! The following story contains themes of child abuse and neglect, mentions of alcoholism, and depictions of suicide/self harm. Please be aware of these things and please do not read this story if you are prone to suicidal ideation. LaetificusSat, 26 Nov 2022 22:49:29 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=523461https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=523461when i was a kid listening to Breaking The Habit in my moms car she was like adamant telling me that Chester was an addict because of the song's lyrics she was right but i dont think it was public knowledge at the time, i think the fact she is also an addict just tipped her offSat, 26 Nov 2022 06:42:24 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=515651https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=515651CW: self harm references - Darkest -  A crimson mark across my arm  Rusted into dull brown discolor  It warms a void in my gut,  Tickles as it mutilates my tissue,  That straight-edge seeping slowly in,  A greusome glint within a fissure of deepest flesh,  Bleeding for my anxiety  Bleeding for my agony  Bleeding for my aching  BleedinMon, 14 Nov 2022 21:08:11 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=514502https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=514502 I wonder what's down that road?  They told me that it was deadly  They said there is a graveyard for the mind  That no one ever comes back from  "I buried my mother" you once said to me  I remembered everything, and asked if I could seeSun, 13 Nov 2022 04:48:58 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=512301https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=512301my dreams have been getting stranger lately. nothing i can recount at the moment given its 4 am and i am struggling to maintain lucidity but it is something i am wondering about. its probably just the sleep deprivation, but i cant help but wonder. when i was a child i once had a "dream" in which i was laying in bed and day turned to night like a lightswitch. i didn't realise it was a dream at the ...Wed, 09 Nov 2022 07:49:42 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=510623https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=510623time went back. didn't even really notice. someone ended up telling me. i have a strange relationship with the night. i love it, but i hate seeing day turn into it. something about it feels wrong. i wish i could live my life in the night. i think my body wants me to be nocturnal. i keep falling asleep later and later until its 8am and i'm going to bed and waking up at like 5pm. can i be a vampire?Sun, 06 Nov 2022 21:36:20 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=510049https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=510049if you like sent me an IM or something i probably wont respond for awhile and when i do answers will be short and curt. i dont really use this website primarily for interacting with other people, thats a tertiary thing. for me spacehey is a "woah look at this cool thing" site. y'know.Sat, 05 Nov 2022 22:06:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=506143https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=506143generally i don't really care but like if yr under 18 then probably don't try to interact with me. i'll still add people if they dont have their ages listed OR if yr around like 16/17 and have a decent vibe but other then that just like. please leave me alone. nothing personal but most kids are just annoying sorry.Sun, 30 Oct 2022 17:30:48 +0000