https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=1230210The most recent Blog Entries by the User "Patrona <3" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=529869https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=529869I met her ten years ago. Last call at a hotel bar in a city I couldn't pronounce. Her lips dripped with the chrism so striking you could see it across the room. She had beauty marks on her right cheek and a martini clutched, with a single sip left between two fingers. I asked her if I could sit on the empty stool next to her. Her eyes rose, slowly, her smirk unnerving as if she'd met me before. I ...Mon, 05 Dec 2022 16:53:45 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=446738https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=446738"You really seen me high and gone everyday,  knowing that I was cutting, listened to my breakdowns, saw me leaving my house every night to see a stranger. You saw me downing bottles and doing bumps,  talking about how I wanted to kill myself. You knew that I kept disappearing for months at a time, sleeping all the time, failing my classes and skipping. And yet all you said was, "oh that's justFri, 15 Jul 2022 00:55:03 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=446733https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=446733After all the compliments die down, the high i feel is fading away, they boys stop texting me, my friends are asleep, and I'm left with myself. I don't know who I am. I don't like who I am. I am a faceless, unlikeable chameleon. -@peachesnwh0resFri, 15 Jul 2022 00:47:24 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=446725https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=446725"You are not worthy of my respect, you are not a God. You are simply BAD PRODUCT." -@haley.n.b00Fri, 15 Jul 2022 00:35:56 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=410780https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=410780god. How badly I want to grab you by the neck and passionately kiss you, I want to steal all your breath. Taste you. Feel you. I crave it all so much. How badly I want to push you into my wall and climb up your body cupping your face. One day you'll be coming after me.. -@nywhenyFri, 13 May 2022 12:55:04 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=410754https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=410754I am no saint, My footprint on this earth has been that of a thief Yet I wish that people  would pray to me And just like every deity I won't answer. -@dessa4444Fri, 13 May 2022 12:23:09 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=410753https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=410753"Do you sh?" No, I never cut myself. But I like the feeling of pinching my skin,  until little drops of blood come out. I like turning the water temperature flaming hot, or ice cold, until my skin turns dark red and my lips start getting blue. I like how endless days of emptiness start turning into physical pain. I like getting barely 4 hours of sleep and being awake all night, cryinFri, 13 May 2022 12:20:03 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=410744https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=410744I'll never understand the rationale  of being mean to something so small. I'm twenty now. I so solemnly swear to try  my best to be a better parent to my inner child. But there is a terrible beast that's in the way. Ruining things. Ruining everything. If I am to be happy I've got to defeat it; This anger. But as it turns out...Fri, 13 May 2022 12:08:28 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=410741https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=410741I will always be my mother, no matter how hard I try. I put many miles between us. I cut my hair, change my clothes, wash my skin to remove her, but she still lingers. I peel off my flesh to scrub  her out from underneath,  but she's in my bones. She is under every fingernail, in every pore. No matter how much I pull and prod at my face, no matter how many shapesFri, 13 May 2022 12:01:35 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=410738https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=410738I'm so dangerously,  desperately bored. I'm sitting in a park wishing some stranger would come up and punch me. I want to be brutally reminded of my own mortality. I want to shed teeth and blood, want the taste of life in my mouth, gush of copper and salt. I want to be set on fire. I want to break and hurt and heal, want a  fresh neFri, 13 May 2022 11:57:15 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=403838https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=403838I was reading something the other day  about how when you were born  into a burning house  you think the whole world is on fire.  but it's not.  Well when I was born  I was placed gently  to the arms of an open flame.  I felt as the heat redden to my skin  and rose my cheeks.  but I still played in bonfires and  when I went to the beach vacations in volcanoeWed, 04 May 2022 16:10:02 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=402060https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=402060I brought a knife to a gun fight.  I do not intend on losing,  I will slash and slice,  kick and writhe,  I will dodge bullets and slice skin.  you will fail.  I shall not,  just you wait,  years of rage bubble beneath my skin  and I am more than ready to  release it.  - a rage fueled tango  -@silly_littleguyMon, 02 May 2022 19:10:11 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=402055https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=402055Dirty  Mother, will you bathe me? I'm dirty and unclean, Blackened and tainted,  My virginity soiled, and my purity stained.  You gaze on me with disgust,  While nature glorifies my pollution.  You pray for guilt to sanitize my odor,  But I continue trailing muddy footprints along the carpet.  -@femcel_00Mon, 02 May 2022 19:07:39 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=389308https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=389308I am cocky.  I have always been. I thought I could grasp at the scope of my own insignificants. I thought that if I was aware of how minuscule of a particle I am I would be able to reason with the space that I wasted. And yet, my own mortality, the years promised only to me slipped away, my face ages on a path I couldn't have foreseen. When I was a child I made myself understand the universe's exp...Tue, 19 Apr 2022 19:12:23 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=389293https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=389293(tw. VENT ) I dunno. I've talked with my doctors about this and they still have no idea... ♡ So I'm sleeping wayyy too much, I'm at school and I'm taking naps during lecture. I go home and I go directly to bed, no school work, no food, no hygiene, just bed. I wake up around dinner time not to eat, but to say goodnight to everyone. then I go back to bed for the whole night. When I wake up, I'm alre...Tue, 19 Apr 2022 19:02:18 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=389268https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=389268(tw. nsfw ) ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ You know how some people would play music while fucking? Would a musician be able to hit every beat while fucking? Would he be listening to the music that is playing just to only follow the beats? Is he strong/fast enough to do so? What if there was a really fast bpm on a song? Will he be able to do it??? ♡ Please respond to this I'Tue, 19 Apr 2022 18:44:34 +0000