https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=1236534The most recent Blog Entries by the User "Astra<3" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=586188https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=586188Sooo. I'm not single anymore. Um I actually got back with one of my exs (for the third time) after a while of us not dating. It was always a right person wrong time type of thing. We both where ungodly mentally unstable and not healed at all. Though things change. Of course theirs still problem with that we both have trama and it's not magically gonna disappear. I love him more than anything. He's...Wed, 08 Feb 2023 15:22:46 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=447308https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=447308I have craved love since I was young. Since I knew that romantic relationships where. I believe I did so because my family luck in love is low. I mean my nana has been married 8 times. Doesn't exactly set a good example for my mother did it? I crave love yet I don't go out of my way to find someone. I've gotten to the point where I rather stay in my fantasies than try Because I'm scared. I've alre...Sat, 16 Jul 2022 03:43:27 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=446820https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=446820So I do have bipolar 2 lol. Uh I'm aroflux apparently wich explains alot. I'm 17 now and a junior my cumulative GPA was a 3.4 hoping to take double credit courses. Um I may have to cut out my mother out of my life if she continues to do drugs. I'm job hunting it's not going well. I'm working with someone to get me out of the house possibly doing volunteer work they are also maybe gonna help me go ...Fri, 15 Jul 2022 04:03:17 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=414278https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=414278Man Some of my friends convinced me to start writing a fanfic. And man im only on chapter one and its probably gonna be around 4,000 word long. Im assuming i have this motivation from a manic episode. Note ive never written a fan fic before in my life let alone post it. but its fun. i like it so far. Tue, 17 May 2022 20:55:45 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=400255https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=400255I've started going to therapy and she very quickly said that from the sounds of it I have bipolar type 2. Bipolar type 2 is essential I've never reached a full manic episode. I start doing reckless or stupid things but it never on the same scale of people with type 1 who like sell their car. Type 2 also means I usally have more,longer, downs than ups with little middle ground. It also explains my ...Sat, 30 Apr 2022 19:19:58 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=397728https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=397728I learned today more than ever that for certain people you shouldn't react to shit they say. Because they want that reaction to create even more problems. So I was nice. Through gritting teeth I told them I did not care and I just wanted to maintain mutual respect not to fuck with eachother. It was a lie ofcourse there is nothing more I want to do than shred them to bits. But nothing will beat loo...Thu, 28 Apr 2022 23:17:17 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=396310https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=396310My freind (who is on here hello) asked my if I'm okay being a bad person. Because before I mention how I know I'm a bad person. Wich I am. I know I've done shitty thing and I'll probably do bad things whather I know them or not. Theirs time the world won't allow you to be a good person and sometimes your own emotions won't allow you too. I'm a bitch,I'm rude,I've mipulayed, and I've lied. I've gos...Wed, 27 Apr 2022 14:34:16 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=394034https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=394034If you don't understand what scary hot mean is someone is hot but they have a face and body language that screams don't fucking talk to me. I've been told a few times that I'm this but I'm here to say shoot your shot I can't generalize but atleast for me if you have the confidence to talk to me and tell me I'm attractive (in a non creepy predatory way) I'm probably gonna talk to you are my standar...Mon, 25 Apr 2022 12:59:50 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=392146https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=392146Look okay I have memories of these movies though they br vague I remebr loving them and being in love with the one pirate dude. I kinda wanna watch them. Please tell me someone rembers the.Fri, 22 Apr 2022 22:42:21 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=391667https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=391667Today is day of silence for LGBTQ+ children for billing,repression, and more so please if you can stay silent today or as quite as you can if you wish to proticpate. If you are in public whater that be at school or not "break the silence " at the end of the day when you do be as loud as possible. Thank you for more info look up GLSEN Fri, 22 Apr 2022 12:44:58 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=391407https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=391407Just as it says I need freinds I'm very bored. I swear I'm a generally nice person just a bit of a bitch. I'll listen to pretty much any music though I prefere it to be loud I enjoy reading anime extra and I'm also down to just talk shit if that what you want. Add me on here or one of my socials on my profile and I'll mostlikly awnserFri, 22 Apr 2022 01:40:28 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=391031https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=391031Okay okay the sound Monster by dodie is mwah♡ I relate to it a little too much also also deeply by bôa their great. Also music recs would be great~Thu, 21 Apr 2022 16:23:09 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=389686https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=389686I've been single for a while now mostly because I'm unstable thus can't hold a stable relationship but man I so badly want someone to confess to me and my gsa is holding a gay prom and I really want to take someone like please just let me love someoneWed, 20 Apr 2022 02:57:03 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=389214https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=389214When I'm numb and my brain isn't working they way it should I crave like everything. Not food like relationship and a good friendship connection and to go out but like you know you can but I'm not sad over it it more like a fact that I know I can't change and I just sit there and sleep or mindless do things when I could easily be going out and doing things and making memories but I just can't. Idk...Tue, 19 Apr 2022 17:38:01 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=384540https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=384540I dont dream i never really have. id like pointers to dream i think id be great or things to help remember  them  this is like genuine or you can just describe what dreaming is like.Thu, 14 Apr 2022 19:04:24 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=384232https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=384232My love life has pretty much been in the drain. The last person I dated I didn't really love it was an act to make them feel better and work as rebound for them so they wouldn't still be in love with their fucking horrible ex and I kinda dated online but that hard and she cheated on me and I had this one dude we talked every single day then he just stopped and started dating someone. It sucks. Whe...Thu, 14 Apr 2022 16:18:31 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=373442https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=373442Yall wish everything would go your way for just like an hour not a week or an day. An hour. And if I knew I'd abuse it I probably wouldn't ask for riches or anything honestly I'd be for ppl to listen to me and to be asked out and if I could get a job. That's all really. It's not like I have a bad life I'm very content but ya know. Just wishFri, 08 Apr 2022 04:21:32 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=318234https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=318234Om not talking nesscarly bout age regression. More so falling backward on your mental health. There no real reason it been triggered I've just gone back. It sucks I was on I high for a few months and it all cone crashing down. I'm fed up with people. I've become recluse and more agitated when people spend extend periods of time around me. I sleep either to little or to much I have no appetite. I d...Sat, 19 Mar 2022 02:22:42 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=261842https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=261842Tigger warning! Mentions of SA! I tend to not be an incredibly dramatic person but thw last 6mo or so it's been constant and most of it isn't even mine. as mentioned in a previous blog I have an ex I dated for 2 years. It was one hell of a break up I ended and their was alot of anger for many many reasons and some of them weren't even just solely us problems. We're still great freinds though we've...Thu, 17 Mar 2022 00:43:46 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=259951https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=259951Im worried if i made a right decision. My ex (2 year long relation ship) of a few mouths now who i'm still incredibly close friends. I helped them the get with someone yesterday and their dating and they are cute but my ex is a former hard core drug addict and we broke up for several reasons that im worried their new girlfriend is really thinking about. yes i helped them get together but i don't t...Wed, 16 Mar 2022 22:26:31 +0000