https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=1268053The most recent Blog Entries by the User "♡☆Cyanea's Mania☆♡" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1211579https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1211579Don't chase love. Don't force it. I found my childhood diary today and read a few pages. I was a 9 year old girl, talking about how it would be really surprising and amazing for a girl like me to be loved. I talked about feeling worthless and unable to be loved. I was 9, I shouldn't have had a problem like this. I was lovable. NoSun, 07 Jul 2024 21:23:52 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1052159https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1052159Ich muss mein Deutsch verbessern und ich möchte Freunden die Deutsch sprechen kennenlernen! Bitte schreib mir :')Mon, 08 Jan 2024 19:09:45 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1003614https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1003614Life won't treat you as kindly as your little bubble does. People won't put a trigger warning before talking of any minor inconvenience or issues just to make sure you won't be impacted by it, as long as it's not common heavily traumatising events or visuals that actually trigger a physical seizure. While it's not okay to be constantly exposed to heavy issues, staying away from them just keeps you...Thu, 07 Dec 2023 22:52:28 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1002015https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1002015It took me a while to accept being a girl of blues. It's within my soul and there's no point of denying it. It fits my skin, it fits my emotions. Even when I am happy I will always have the slight hue of sadness existing inside me. It will always be there, sometimes I will be able to control it but sometimes surpressing won't work anymore and I will overflow. I feel, I was born to feel. I was born...Wed, 06 Dec 2023 22:53:55 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=944510https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=944510And by being a sl-t I literally mean self isolating and focusing on academy and myselfSat, 28 Oct 2023 09:14:58 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=783683https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=783683Its like bras 🌸💖🥰💅🏻 but its also bras 🤢🤢🤮🤮😡😡 you know what i mean?Mon, 03 Jul 2023 15:31:33 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=778823https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=778823I have a trans (male to female) friend who will have a gender affirmation surgery in winter and today she was talking about the risks to us because we were curious and one of her biggest fears was having a "non aesthetic looking v@gina" so she showed us one of the post operation pictures that she found which was done by the doctor she is going to. She thought all of them were not pleasing in looks...Fri, 30 Jun 2023 18:25:35 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=776406https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=776406Its so interesting to me that a 15 year old just creates this whole chaos and mess and apparently they have an army of other children bullying and threatening others, we shouldve left drama behind at the tati vs james charles thing like wtf yall should just get therapy and some internet restriction and go to school or smth Wed, 28 Jun 2023 22:48:28 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=773855https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=773855Is it actually natural that I hate someone so much for loving them just as much? I wanna hug them until a piece of them becomes mine but I also want to destroy them to bits. Is there a thing behind this or am I just thinking of something that isn't even that deep and in fact pretty normal? I just don't think I can deal with such emotions with the required maturity and calmness. Now that I think of...Tue, 27 Jun 2023 00:56:04 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=773060https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=773060There's this stoner that I chitchatted with and he sent me his Spotify and asked for my opinion on his music so I listened to a few. I told him that rapping with a monotone voice is something that I like but the production should be richer and this boy blocks me?? You ask for criticism and you can't take it? And he is a Buddhist too like be ffr?? This boy took FL Studio's ready to use beats, added...Mon, 26 Jun 2023 09:32:54 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=768627https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=768627The amount of self diagnosing here is sooo craaaazy to me, you don't have to have a personality disorder to be interesting, plus for many disorders psychiatrists usually wait until the person is 18 to diagnose properly, it doesn't matter if you have the signs before that age or not. Its soooo pathetic, do better.  Oh also, disorders dont justify your shitty behaviours, if you are actually diagnose...Fri, 23 Jun 2023 00:45:49 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=767913https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=767913As much as I love the appearance and the anatomy of jellyfish and find them fascinating, I hate being in the same water with them. The ones where I swim can sting really badly (though they are not poisonous, thank god) and it's just annoying overall. Once you see one, even if you dodge it your whole whim to swim is gone. I even fear them I think. When I was 9, one stung my chest and one literally ...Thu, 22 Jun 2023 13:12:36 +0000