https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=1329209The most recent Blog Entries by the User "Jacqs<3" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1901271https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1901271Just making a blog post coz I’m so proud of myself! I don’t feel empty every day, I don’t think so negatively about myself and I know I deserve happiness. It feels weird but also so rewarding to not be depressed or feel like something’s missing. I was so scared about finishing my therapy program but I’ve done it! I still have follow ups with my therapist for a couple months but I’ve achieved so mu...Wed, 03 Sep 2025 20:16:53 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1895174https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1895174Hey guys! I haven’t been on here in a while and unfortunately the super annoying UK law thing has made it so we can’t use spacehey anymore :( but I managed to get on it at least for now! Just updating you guys coz I got a job!! It’s a role I’ve been trying to get and I’m very proud of myself. I’m doing my best and I think I’ve been doing well so far. I feel hopeful about the future and I want to t...Fri, 29 Aug 2025 19:45:11 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1510877https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1510877Hi everyone, It's been a while! I'm just updating. I'm turning 23 in a few days!! I've got everything planned and I'm excited to spend the day with my girlfriend and my friends. I'm spending the actual day with my girlfriend because it's on a Monday, but the day before I'm gonna spend with her and friends because I thought a weekend would make more sense to have a celebration. Me and my girlfriend...Wed, 02 Apr 2025 17:18:19 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1261947https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1261947Hey guys, It's been a long time since I've made a blog post. Hope you're all ok. I'm not doing so great mood wise, but I have great friends, a supportive girlfriend and amazing therapy for BPD. I'm very thankful for the support I receive, but I'm struggling with a lack of personal space at home and not being employed. I'm also scared of not having a job I like, I just want to live happily and comf...Mon, 16 Sep 2024 21:47:14 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1096607https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1096607Hey guys! Ik it’s late but happy new year!! I’m just thinking about my girlfriend’s birthday that’s in 3 days. We’re going on a trip for a few days so I’m really excited to have time to ourselves and do something nice with each other. I also got her some presents that I can’t wait to give her. She’s such a beautiful soul and she deserves the world. I hope she has a good trip with me. We’re also go...Sun, 04 Feb 2024 19:13:04 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1015550https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1015550Hi guys!! Me and my girlfriend came back from Amsterdam on Tuesday. Our anniversary was on Monday and it was so nice!! She loved her present and I loved mine, but let me talk about the holiday as a whole. We got to Amsterdam centraal on Sunday afternoon and managed to get to our hotel which had quite a good location. We had to get the metro so I was very happy to travel around and see what transpo...Fri, 15 Dec 2023 20:07:46 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=989158https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=989158Me and my girlfriend are going to Amsterdam next week!! We’re only going for a couple days but we’ve booked stuff we’re gonna do and we’re hoping to go ice skating too. I can’t wait to have an amazing time and private time with her, and I’m thankful that I’ve been able to afford it. We’re going on the Eurostar coz we wanted to try it and we’ve never used it before! I also thought it would be easie...Wed, 29 Nov 2023 14:12:29 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=964985https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=964985Purple’s my favourite colour so I thought I’d make a blog post in purple writing for the first time! I really wanna talk about my hopes to move out. I’m struggling because I used to live alone, then my mum came back and we live together and then my sister moved back. Now there’s 3 of us in a flat and my other sister is moving back in too. She’s meant to move in for February but my mum is encouragi...Mon, 13 Nov 2023 15:02:57 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=926642https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=926642Me, my girlfriend and my friends are going to an LGBT+ Halloween day party!! I’m sooooo excited. I’m dressing as men in black with a little twist ;) and my gf is dressing up as a vampire so she’s gonna look very hot haha (she always does anyway) and one of my friends is going as Lara Croft and my friend of 10 years who’s like another sister is dressing up as a dark angel!! We’re going with a few o...Fri, 13 Oct 2023 08:31:11 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=926637https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=926637I’ve finally found a job! It happened so fast which is ironic considering how long I kept getting rejected!! I start next week, I’m nervous but I’m also looking forward to having more money to myself and saving up :)Fri, 13 Oct 2023 08:27:30 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=891032https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=891032Hey guys! Just struggling a bit mentally because I don't have a lot of money, and I still don't have a job. I wish I could have the job that I really desire and thrive and be happy, and be able to save up lots of money and be responsible. I've been really low for a while and I feel less bad sometimes and my girlfriend makes me feel better too but I don't want to stress her. I'm gonna keep trying a...Wed, 13 Sep 2023 17:03:42 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=828779https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=828779Hi guys!! I graduated last week and I looked great :) my girlfriend did my hair the day before and my outfit looked great! I saw my uni friends and my family came!! My girlfriend watched it live online and she was so supportive. They read my whole name wrong on stage which ruined the moment, but I had a great time seeing my friend graduate and spending some time with her and her mum and my family ...Sun, 30 Jul 2023 16:48:55 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=772384https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=772384I forgot to tell you guys!! I got a 68 for my dissertation so overall I got a 2:1! My uni grade was confirmed while I was on holiday which was so nice because I was having the best time with my girlfriend and then I got good news :) me and one of my friends from uni calculated my grade once I got my dissertation back but having that confirmation was so nice. I'm graduating next month and I want an...Sun, 25 Jun 2023 22:44:00 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=772377https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=772377Me and my girlfriend came back home from our holiday yesterday! It was amazing and I valued and loved the time that I spent with her in a new country doing so many things that I've never done before! We went on a speedboat on the ocean and explored another little bit of land mostly made up of rocks, as well as a little sandy area and went in the sea. My girlfriend saw a jellyfish and we saw some b...Sun, 25 Jun 2023 22:36:59 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=715003https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=715003Me and my girlfriend are going on holiday! We're going for 6 days and I'm so happy!!!! We're really looing forward to doing new stuff with each other and going on our first holiday together. I've also just finished my dissertation and I'm relaxed and relieved now :)))) can't wait to get my grade back and hopefully get what I've really been aiming forWed, 17 May 2023 12:15:47 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=669337https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=669337Hi guys! My birthday was yesterday and it was really good! I went trampolining with my girlfriend and then we went to her place to get changed, pick up the cake she got me and go out to eat with my friends. I was so excited but nervous because my friends don't know each other and my girlfriend had only met one of my friends, but it went really well and everyone spoke and got along :)) Before we we...Sat, 08 Apr 2023 17:27:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=638349https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=638349Hi guys! Just to add another update, it’s my birthday in 2 weeks and my girlfriend’s getting me a cake. She’s really sweet and generous and I’m so lucky to be with such a beautiful woman. It’s been almost 3 and a half months and I want to be with her for even longer. I want to stay with her and grow and become better with her and as my own person. I’ll let you guys know how my birthday goes! I’m t...Tue, 21 Mar 2023 21:09:03 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=576647https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=576647Hi guys! I haven't been on here in a while but just to give an update, I'm in a relationship! I've been with this beautiful girl for over a month and a half and I hope that it lasts for a very long time. I'm really happy with her and she has let me be a better version of myself. I've become more expressive and creative and I want to improve on myself as well as make her happy and help her progress...Tue, 31 Jan 2023 15:06:16 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=518199https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=518199I know that I said I was gonna take a break and be alone but I have BPD and I get lonely LOL. I was dating someone for just under 2 months before she ended things which upset me for a bit coz I thought I wasn't good enough for anyone, but just before I stopped talking to her I started talking to another girl and thankfully we're still talking. She's very sweet and she's intense but I don't think I...Fri, 18 Nov 2022 14:45:46 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=457092https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=457092Just an update on my mood, I'm still depressed and everyday I feel broken and worn down. I barely speak to anyone and I've deleted social media and all I do is go to work and come back home. It's become so bad that I haven't taken out the bin in the kitchen and there's flies in there. I'm scared of flies so I couldn't go in again after that. I haven't really spoken to anyone but I called someone i...Fri, 05 Aug 2022 20:43:16 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=444246https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=444246I've only been in one relationship and it was terrible and abusive lol. It was definitely not something I deserved even though it feels like it sometimes. I did recently speak to someone else that I thought I could've been with, but I made a really big step and ended things coz I didn't feel happy. She was nice sometimes and we made each other laugh a lot, but she said some questionable things tha...Sat, 09 Jul 2022 15:16:54 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=441591https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=441591Just wanted to blog coz I haven't in a while. I'm feeling empty and depressed and I'm probably gonna enter a depressive episode I just feel it coming. I hope everyone's doing ok though and I hope this feeling passes coz I feel so drained.Sun, 03 Jul 2022 16:16:08 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=396680https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=396680Just thinking about how bad season 2 is especially in comparison to season one. Euphoria was so good especially with the special episodes, but season 2 has no rewatchability apart from like maybe the first episode. It's less cohesive and it feels like so much happened but nothing happened at the same time. I feel like they were juggling too many characters and Maddie getting less screen time was s...Wed, 27 Apr 2022 20:47:40 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=388145https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=388145I wanna start learning how to drive and I think if I look for a cheap car it will motivate me to learn how to drive and to also get a job because I've never had one before. I struggle a lot with social anxiety and feeling overwhelmed so I'm really afraid of working but I'm trying to find an online job so there's less interaction and I don't have to leave the house. It would also be good to have ex...Mon, 18 Apr 2022 13:08:28 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=379966https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=379966I spoke to my GP about my intrusive thoughts and he sent me stuff so I could self refer to get therapy again LOL I've had like 6 or 7 therapists and I've only just turned 20. I'm glad that I can get help again coz it's been making me feel distressedTue, 12 Apr 2022 14:49:30 +0000