https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=143257The most recent Blog Entries by the User "AraBunny" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=976927https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=976927Wed, 22 Nov 2023 07:52:27 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=512762https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=512762 Not even sure what I should type out at this point. It's been so long and a lot of things have happened that I don't even know how I would start. I don't know, anyways, so I'm now 25 with a 3 year old. Technically homeless, so there's that. Ugh I don't know what I'm doing. I'll chat later Thu, 10 Nov 2022 01:37:04 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=239705https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=239705Whew it has been a WHILE since I logged on. How is everyone doing? Feel like I've missed some drama haha. So there's a couple things I need to let you in on! First being that the divorce is happening, as much as I would not like to get a divorce and try marriage counseling, he doesn't and I'm just going to bite the bullet on it and hopefully one day we can come back together if it's truly meant to...Thu, 17 Feb 2022 23:22:11 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=212222https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=212222Not much to say today. It's been a rough day. I listened to Lie by NF and realized that my ex husband was sending me a message without sending me one. So there was a lot of crying this morning. What if I am the one that messed this up? What if I am the one that caused him to ghost us? What if it was me? I could've gone in the other room and hung out with him more. I could have tried to reason with...Thu, 13 Jan 2022 23:12:41 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=207922https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=207922My goodness has it been a minute lol. Well hello everyone, I've been working like non stop and sleeping when I'm not working. But I love it. I really like my job, it has it's down moments but luckily I work with really nice people so it's almost rewarding when that happens too. Anyways, there's not much to say today. I'm off this coming Sunday so I will be a little more active then. Thanks for tun...Sat, 08 Jan 2022 00:42:23 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=205432https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=205432 Fantastic news, turned out orientation was just the start of day one of on the new job! So guess that means I'm officially a working mama! I'm so excited for what this new job will do for me and my daughter. Ugh what a relief. Going back tomorrow so goodnight for now I got shit to do hahahahTue, 04 Jan 2022 23:13:31 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=204893https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=204893I'm so excited I start my new job tomorrow!! So close to being completely free I can almost taste it! And I've never gotten paid this much at this job! It's sadly part time but I'm going to work my hardest so they upgrade me to full time! OH MY GOSH I CANNOT CONTAIN MY EXCITMENT. Like if my baby wasn't asleep I would be jumping up and down screaming and crying! This is good news! Great news even! ...Tue, 04 Jan 2022 04:10:46 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=204212https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=204212So as soon as I start my job and figure out when pay days are I'm going to call the lawyer and make the appointment. While I have this free time I should probably write down everything I remember up until this point. Man this sucks. I hate this for my daughter and honestly for me too. I'm going to forever be hurt by this and at some point it wont bother me anymore but I will always remember it. I'...Mon, 03 Jan 2022 01:35:01 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=200731https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=200731So little life update, I'm officially a single mom. I meet my lawyer sometime soon and since its a low income lawyer I only get 30 minutes in my budget so I will have to have every evidence and question in hand when I go. Personally I want to make him pay for this divorce but honestly if it gets me unattached from him sooner I'm okay with paying.  So I still haven't heard from my "husband" since hWed, 29 Dec 2021 23:59:57 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=182526https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=182526Whelp, its happening, officially applying for a divorce right now. And it seems a lot cheaper than I thought it would be. Which I guess is a good thing? I'm going to ask my parents about it to make sure its not a scam site. If this place is true, Im excited to get it going while he's fucking up right now.  I'll update laterSun, 12 Dec 2021 20:53:42 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=179530https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=179530So my husband is found. Turns out he was at the trailer with his friend the whole time, completely okay. So I'm glad he's not in a ditch somewhere. He still isn't answering any of my phone calls. Luckily though, while trying to find him, I made a friend up there. a pen-pal if you will and she is currently on my team and is spying. She's at their house right now trying to see if my husband will be ...Thu, 09 Dec 2021 01:19:09 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=177431https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=177431So my husband is missing. My parents bought him a ticket to start our life together in Oklahoma and I haven't heard from him since Thursday (12/02/2021) evening. I've done everything I can so far so I'm just sitting and waiting for him to either call me or him to come in contact with an officer and let him know that im looking for him. Which could be weeks from now...I don't care what or who he is...Tue, 07 Dec 2021 18:09:52 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=53266https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=53266So I completely took on the mom look today. I have my hair in a clip, a furry sherpa on thats a blush pink color, jeans rolled up a quarter above my ankle, and crocs. No makeup since I've been wearing makeup for three days straight, feel like my face needs a break. Seems to be an easy day today. I'm about to get on animal crossing and decorate my pier for the update and Kappn. Very easy, very laid...Tue, 02 Nov 2021 23:52:07 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=52692https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=52692I had a whole page typed and then hit a button and it disappeared :( Honestly, I don't even want to type it again. My job is starting to suck and that was pretty much the end of it anyways. I'm going to log off. Sorry for a short read again. If anyone is actually reading these. I wish I could get feedback on something...anything really.Tue, 02 Nov 2021 01:54:00 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=52025https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=52025HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!! Officially spoopy day! How exciting! I'm very excited for tonight. Dressing up with my kiddo and going trick or treating. She can actually walk and talk now so it'll be a little more fun for her. And she's going as Anna from Frozen. Ya know, cause she has the blonde streak in her hair that she's had since birth. This is going to be so fun! Signing off early jusSun, 31 Oct 2021 15:45:40 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=51282https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=51282I feel like a broken record at this point just repeating the same thing all the time. I wanna leave but then I cool down from my emotions and I don't want to leave. Does that mean I shouldn't leave? But I also hate him, but I don't?  We're going with a short blog entry here. I'm confused and too busy to type. Gotta make Halloween plans!Sat, 30 Oct 2021 13:55:19 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=50933https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=50933I'm starting to realize that maybe I need to leave my husband, and that even though he doesn't hit me physically, I still walk on eggshells everyday to make sure he's satisfied enough to remain calm and happy. It's so mentally draining that I never have energy to do anything. So I guess you could say we got worse. He got upset with me this morning because I asked him to change our daughters diaper...Fri, 29 Oct 2021 23:15:40 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=50010https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=50010I've been thinking on it and maybe the red flags and emotional trauma is worth leaving him for. I've always thought that actual abuse or any physical harm is reason to leave and sometimes I would test it to see if he would hit me because then it would be easier to leave. Emotional reason to leave seems like not that big of a deal to leave over because at some point it can be fixed right? In no way...Wed, 27 Oct 2021 23:10:28 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=48979https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=48979Let's talking about something on my mind currently. I hate the way I look, but I hate putting work towards something that won't happen instantly. Like my body for example, I've gained a lot of weight since having a child. And I haven't done much to decrease it. The only reason I'm barely eating right now is because we don't have money for food and the food we do get goes to our daughter first, my ...Tue, 26 Oct 2021 00:45:55 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=47642https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=47642Goodmorning, as much as I love working Saturdays because its an easy 10 hour shift. I also hate running late because then there's a ton of members just standing outside and looking at you like you're a piece of shit. Like oh I'm sorry I'm not the type of person who just gets up early on a SATURDAY. To make matters worse me and my husband are starting to get bad again. Is it weird that he couldn't ...Sat, 23 Oct 2021 13:45:22 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=46898https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=46898I thank mother nature for rain on days like these. My night just got a whole lot easier and much more laid back. I might even get to close early tonight. Which means I get home eariler and get to enjoy my day off longer. So nice. Speaking of nice, so has been everything in my life recently? Which is odd, and I'm expecting something to go wrong here. By the way that stay at home job offer I got, th...Thu, 21 Oct 2021 22:52:23 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=46343https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=46343  I think I might be signing up to be one of those late night phone girls? LOL I applied at this stay at home job and they aren't asking for money up front which tells me more than what most of them do. Well I guess we will see how it goes, and how my husband will think about it. I mean he let me download tinder for a drinking game one night surely he would let me flirt with a couple guys to make ...Thu, 21 Oct 2021 01:24:10 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=42159https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=42159I have a love hate relationship with my job and its because of one co worker and only one. I don't know why he's so adamant about having the court sheet look similar to what is on the court. I mean why can't he just go to the next open court and tell me what court that is and if I can put his name on it I will but if I cant then I cant? Anyways today is going to go so well because I get off work iMon, 04 Oct 2021 20:23:43 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=41913https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=41913  I'm so sorry that I haven't written or been online in some time. I have been working almost every day and we are not allowed to bring out personal computers anymore so it's been harder trying to find time to turn on my laptop. I wish I was in college at least taking one class so I have at least a reason to have a laptop. Maybe I should sign up for online classes. I'm married, almost 24, and a mo...Sun, 03 Oct 2021 18:03:32 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=40633https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=40633I'm so mad at myself for not saving the multiple paragraphs I had earlier today on here about something that was bothering me earlier. And now I don't remember it and I'm not angry about it anymore. Go figure lmao.Tue, 28 Sep 2021 01:13:16 +0000