Blog Entries by "s.d." | SpaceHey

arria

Mon, 25 Sep 2023 18:44:44 +0000

this is a poem based on the quote "non dolet, paeta". i read it yesterday and it broke my soul. i feel like all of us have been in arria's shoes at some point, when you love someone so fiercely that you would put yourself in harm's way to ease their mind. you would sacrifice your wellbeing for them. so this is the product of that. enjoy. - sd.

september '23 update 1/2

Sat, 23 Sep 2023 06:28:50 +0000

ok so, alongside my rant, i knew i wanted to do a larger, overarching update! so, to start, school has been surprisingly good. i only go until fourth hour and at the end of my school day i serve as a teacher's aid for the pre-k class, which is so much fun. i love helping my new little friends learn their "alphabets". i love being "ms. sd"!! they are the sweetest little babies and i wish they'd sta...

rant #1

Sat, 23 Sep 2023 06:08:27 +0000

tw for gross ass men. ok, i really need to get this off my chest. there's a boy i go to school with who i kinda talked to a yr or so ago, but some kinda icky stuff came out abt him so i dropped him for a little while. well, he reinitiated contact and i figured i'd given him enough time to grow out of it, and we talked abt it and i felt like he had. well, fast forward to now. it makes me so unhapp...

ACADEMIC WEAPON

Mon, 01 May 2023 13:45:47 +0000

I didn't take my studies seriously this year. I focused more on drama and meaningless relationships. However, it's my junior year so that was really stupid of me. That leaves me only one choice. Next year, I HAVE TO MAKE ALL STRAIGHT A'S. IN HIGH SCHOOL AND IN MY COLLEGE CLASSES. I MUST HAVE AN ACADEMIC COMEBACK, SO STARTLING AND SOMEWHAT GROTESQUE THAT

stealing the stolen survey!

Wed, 12 Apr 2023 01:54:55 +0000

1. What is your best friend's name? I can't narrow it down!

That's Life!

Tue, 11 Apr 2023 00:54:35 +0000

Hello everyone! I hope everyone had a good Easter, or at least a good Easter break if you don't celebrate. Also not sure if I have any Islamic friends, but Ramadan Mubarak nonetheless. As of late, my life has been full of ups and downs. I recently won an all-expenses paid trip to Washington DC, which I'm very excited about. My first full year as a part-time college student is also coming to a clos...

relationship trouble

Sat, 25 Feb 2023 18:19:45 +0000

Ok, I need to get this off my chest. Let's start off with the fact that I am truly, genuinely happy in my relationship. At least I believe I am. However, there's a small part of me that wonders if I need to leave this relationship and spend some time caring for myself, by myself. Here's my issue. So, my boyfriend, let's call him Kyle for simplicity and anonymity, and I have been dating since early...

2/22/23

Wed, 22 Feb 2023 16:35:11 +0000

tw for mention of feeling sick for those of you who may have emetophobia. Ok. I have a lot on my mind and I really need to get it out. 1) So I have a boyfriend, right? But lately, he's been so distant. He hardly ever texts me back and he hasn't been at school. I feel like he's getting tired of me. To be fair, I would also get tired of myself. Because of my last relationsh

girlhood

Sat, 24 Dec 2022 02:07:40 +0000

you're sixteen you're sixteen and you're wearing a shirt your mom never noticed was that tight. you're sixteen and nothing matters. nothing but your first push-up bra and that boy in your seventh hour who swears he would never hurt you, he loves you. it's only noon and you're a grown woman. it's midnight, you're sixteen, laying in bed. you're laying in bed and you can't sleep. the vision of you in...

seasons of change.

Mon, 07 Nov 2022 02:29:36 +0000

spring . spring is my best season. the flora is alive and so am i. my soul is reignited with the souls of newborn bunnies and puppies and lambs. the plush grass is soft on the soles of my feet, carrying, carrying me into the slight breeze, fresh with the smell of new leaves, fresh dew. the breeze, the bubbling creek, they call my name. i respond, respond to the invitation to dance. da

Something Brighter.

Tue, 01 Nov 2022 17:52:40 +0000

Life goes on. It always does. True, I usually use this account to make my often painful life seem poetic and beautiful, I'd like to treat you all to something brighter. Firstly, thank you to everyone who reads my little writings, especially Dio, who checks in on me frequently. Thank you all for making this page feel safe and homey. It's fall in Oklahoma. The foliage is lacking, and mother nature c...

Beyond Exhausted. (vent/rant)

Mon, 10 Oct 2022 02:50:18 +0000

My parents hate me. My siblings don't talk to me. I don't understand any of my schoolwork. There is no reprieve. I'm on a hamster wheel leading nowhere fast. I broke up with my boyfriend. I relapsed. My parents hate me. At least my siblings gave no illusion of high hopes. There was no standard. Me, on the other hand? As a child, I was funny. I was hardworking. And oh, was I brilliant. I was always...

The Men of Turn: Washington's Spies

Sat, 24 Sep 2022 05:04:54 +0000

I Started Rewatching It And... Oh, Good Heavens >. < John Simcoe (Specifically in his Queen's Rangers Arc) I know those of you who have seen Turn are looking at me like I am CRAZY right now, but like... ignoring all the horrible things he did... he is kinda.... like he's.... HEAR ME OUT.... JOHN ANDRE (SWOON SWOON SWOON!!)

my mama and me

Fri, 23 Sep 2022 22:29:16 +0000

(tw/negative self image, misogyny and mentions of disordered eating) Growing up, I was raised by a mother who hates women. If they wear too much makeup, they're trashy. If they're too thin, they're sick. If they show too much skin, they're whores. Unless you're just like her, you're worthless. I grew up with her. Her and her endless dieting, always on Weight Watchers, Atkins, or something similar...

A few thoughts. (tw/religion)

Thu, 01 Sep 2022 15:35:54 +0000

This entry will not be as poetic as the others, but it's something that's been on my chest lately and I want to get it out. So, first off, I am Catholic. I see your cursor hovering over the unfriend button, but hear me out. I am Catholic, but I don't know. I'm confused. I'm at a crossroads and I don't know what to do. I love Jesus. I love Mary. I love Joan of Arc and Catherine of Siena. They bring...

Cool Neocities!

Wed, 31 Aug 2022 20:24:33 +0000

So, since I started building my website, I began poking around different sites. Here are some of the cool ones! Will update frequently! Who Are You? (Housefly) Castle Cyberskull

All of My Socials!

Wed, 31 Aug 2022 20:15:19 +0000

Here's a megalist of all of my socials, I will add to it as needed! :D FriendProject VampyFreaks

our little home.

Tue, 30 Aug 2022 16:04:50 +0000

our little home. our little white house in our little small town, where i spent so many hours. so many days, playing in our little front yard, catching roly-polys and daydreaming in the soft clover patches. little feet in the dry dirt, the humid southern summers, drinking sweet tea out of a mason jar, and eating strawberries out of an old whipped cream bowl. it smelled like fresh cut grass and the...

intro post

Mon, 29 Aug 2022 02:12:44 +0000

heyyy so i really kind of intend for this to be my poetry/writing etc acc but uhh yknow. this is my intro, add me up ::thumbs_up:: - i'm sd - no pronouns pls (unless close) - 16 - usa - i like breaking bad - i listen to a lot of different music i'm pretty boring. i rly just go to school and that's it. dm or add if you want to tho, i'm a lot more talkative one-on-one :)

the woman in my father's house

Mon, 29 Aug 2022 02:03:56 +0000

there's a woman in my father's house. once, she was beloved. a little girl with white blonde hair, a springy gait and not a care in the world. the sky could turn red, and still she would beam, skipping through the tall grass, playing make believe all by herself. she wore pink plaid and patent leather shoes, tied her hair up in bows and made every waking moment her one-woman show. but like the tre...