https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=1678070The most recent Blog Entries by the User "S0up" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1258448https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1258448Yesterday at noon I tried to tell my aunt an appointment change with my dentist and I wanted to show her my phone so she could read the text and understand the details, and she started getting angry and shit that I still wasn't talking with my voice to her yada yada so I put music on not to hear her She continue yelling from other rooms, then come back and start blabbering again in her "I calmed d...Wed, 11 Sep 2024 16:41:21 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1236845https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1236845So I'm in this small art server on discord right  And like a couple days ago I was having a convo w someone, ended up randomly talking ab therapy , let's call the other person Rock. I was like ya fine you can talk w family n friends but professional help is different, therapists are equipped to deal w what u tell em, ppl close to you could feel a lot of weight n pressure n stuff from the things u ...Mon, 12 Aug 2024 14:59:50 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1233333https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1233333yes you guessed it it's about my fucking aunt again. yk ive heard some weeks ab how shes gonna have troubles paying in time my school stuff, which yk nothing knew at this point money troubles have their own space in my brain. but then she comes in my room today being like "hey do you wanna escape a couple days yk just q quick thing at the end of the month" she has this thing of proposing stuff cry...Wed, 07 Aug 2024 13:10:56 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1205440https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1205440I'm on the train back from prideee  My legs are kiiiiiilling me I didn't sit down for like 4 hours straight. It was fun. The weather was hot but the ppl we hotter. There's one specific bus line that gets to the park where the parade starts from so it would just start from the train station already filled to the brim with Gay™. These events are so fun every alt mfer dresses as much as possible (me ...Sat, 29 Jun 2024 19:05:30 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1170433https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1170433My aunt is fucking pressing me to stop with the non talking Cus I don't talk to her, full on mutism  And she thinks the only reason I was doing it was cus I was afraid of coming out  And it's not that  She presses me I can't have a fucking normal conversation with her Because they don't exist  Wether you fucking talk to her or not she will press you on any given matter for 20 fucking minutes each ...Tue, 14 May 2024 11:00:10 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1164379https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1164379Unnoticing concrete, floor hit by reflections of fluorescent streetlamps They burn bright  And replace the light of god  Who forgot this dark corner of the universe  Nausea comes in  And vomit would resemble stale granite tiles under my feet Ants of metal, gears of flesh Never stopping, never letting the looming black of the sky finally fall like a never coming quiet curtain over this perfectly cl...Mon, 06 May 2024 17:54:13 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1164197https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1164197These days I feel like a wreck  Last week I kept wanting to cry and not having the energy to act in class like I was fine. Im hating when people talk, I hate words, I hate conversations After loosing the train on Monday and having to wait for a taxi, I felt so alone. I had nobody to call. I have nobody to call. I'm actually alone. On Tuesday I was more a zombie than a person. Or a ghost. I walked ...Mon, 06 May 2024 12:06:23 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1149426https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1149426theyre giving us so many classes and fucking assignments to do. i dont even know what to prioritize. i dont have the physical time to do all this shit. this is supposed to prepare me for jobs? ill be miserable. i dont have the energy. i cant do this for the rest of time. i just dont have it in me. i cant do enough. im not enough. i feel like im one crack away from breaking. im a broken machinThu, 11 Apr 2024 20:47:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1146460https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1146460Con  Lot happened There was lot of stuff  I'm so tired but it was fun  But my feet hurt SO much  I went early, I was there all day  I spent SO MUCH money. I have. So many pins and keychains and necklaces  I ended up eating nothing, food lines are scary and I had to do a DND oneshots at lunch time That was super fun btw. Loved it. DND is always fun  Then I walked some more and spent some more money...Sat, 06 Apr 2024 23:19:06 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1141437https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1141437Okay so, one thing i noticed is like, my classmates acknowleding? my existence more? now, I changed nothing of how I treated 'em, no talking, diff bus n so on a week ago it happened at photography class, but we had to "team work" cus one had to take pics, one had to be the "Model" one had to hold those reflective thingies... so yk we had to talk. So i took pics, giving instructions to the "model" ...Sat, 30 Mar 2024 18:25:02 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1132630https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1132630In the stomach of the beast, I'm an animal myself, ourselves, day-weakened, aching bodies, energy dried, limbs stewing, rough loud hum moving on metal tracks, and I wish the rooms could go dark, we could share the look of the outside night, I see in it, glimpses, of far away fireflies of the cities, and the bright eyes of mechanical creatures, swimming in pitch black  And I know whatever way I sea...Tue, 19 Mar 2024 10:40:06 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1125716https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1125716Ugh Probably not worthy of a blog post so I'll just bullet this fucker  Today was so weird I took the train at lunch time, so so so hungry  Horrible time for train taking cus it's full of like 16 year olds n shit  So I'm like 5 meters away from some fuckers that were blatantly saying shit like "oh I'm emo" n stuff n like omg what happened to shame. We're just commenting ab people that literally ar...Tue, 12 Mar 2024 21:57:03 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1094111https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1094111Ooh drama bitches  I need to stop thinking "mh no drama for a while" CUS THEN STUFF HAPPENS ANYWAY SO Okay few days ago I get a text from another classmate that was like "this Thursday the prof said he could help us w anatomy at 11 am, if you wanna come." I already go on Thursday cus of watercolor class, but that starts at like 2 pm+  So I had to wake up earlyy and oh what I would have missed if I...Thu, 01 Feb 2024 17:52:53 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1087130https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1087130Ok so not a daily journal cus again, stuff is boring n I'm lazy but ig i can write ab two days on the same post, still So Monday, for printing class I went to the room n there were like. Students I've seen before n they were painting n I was like,,, How am I gonna set up the MFING tables but I was just like whatever n waited  Waiting, I put together a small document preparing for the other class o...Thu, 25 Jan 2024 18:20:21 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1060741https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1060741As I mentioned before, these days have been slow n boring n pretty drama free so I'll just do a recap of what's been happening My uncle that lives in another house has been hearing from my aunt ab how I'm doing bad n my mental health is down n shit + solidified by the fact that I didn't go to the family Christmas lunch n is wanting to come back at our home? Cus he thinks my bad mental state is con...Sun, 14 Jan 2024 14:16:04 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1028167https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1028167i finished star wars rebels and uh  the guy, that ended up trapped with the imperial evil guy wtih red eyes that in the ahsoka series they didnt know if they should find or not, cus freeing their friends would free the evil guy too ya it was the main character of this series george lucas whatMon, 25 Dec 2023 00:20:33 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1023734https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1023734Just one class today. Dragon is not early like other times so I'm alone for a long time. I also forgot my powerbank at home so I can charge my phone only a bit before class starts. Berry sits too much near so he ends up in my periferal vision and I could not hate it more. Today we had to paint alongside the prof, so he set up a projector for us to view and a camera behind him pointed in the painti...Thu, 21 Dec 2023 18:43:14 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1021119https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=102111913 episodes. thats it. thats why im already writing ab it.  so what happens first arc is a lot ab the clones, so instant fave. basically this one clone, Tup, during a mission is like, snapped into some mind control thing and kills the master jedi that was with him n everyone is like. Yo. We dont do that dude. They recognize smth is wrong with him, so they try to send him to the hospital in kamino,...Tue, 19 Dec 2023 21:16:35 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1019883https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1019883Was at school basically alone. The door to my first classroom was closed n I was like hell no I gotta finish this linocut so I can start printing, so I asked one of the employee of the building to open it so I still got in early n finished my stuff  Anyway while printing, Retriever at one point was like "uh I think the black ink is being used by- can you remind me your name?" Referring to me. He d...Mon, 18 Dec 2023 20:17:30 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1018844https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1018844i. i just finished season 5. umh.  uh. what??? ???? the fuck??? okay, chronological order. so the metal bros (maul and savage) are like let's go recruit pirates to do stuff, and so they get to hondo, which is a recurring character i dont think ive mentioned before. He's. a pirate like literally the piratest pirate, i find him fun tbh, anyway the bros pay  a bunch of his man to betray hondo n he's ...Sun, 17 Dec 2023 23:22:06 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1017230https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1017230fucking hell. oh this was. definetly a season.  okay, the highlights of it are. omg. so much stuff. first of all, a whole fight in the sea happens, n too much stuff to focus on this but just one thing. One of the separatist guys is obviously shark inspired and so when he swims, he put his feet together and tilt them to make like a vertical tail, like real sharks n thats such a cool lil design. and...Sun, 17 Dec 2023 00:01:33 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1015961https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1015961Discord is down so ig I'll review the third season  I liked it Yk when I said that I love exploring the difference point of views, especially the clones? Well the very first episode was about clones training. Apparently it became harder after jango Fett was killed cus they had to stretch out his DNA or smth? Which makes no sense cus if they're clones. They should have the same DNA. You should be a...Sat, 16 Dec 2023 01:31:30 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1015177https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1015177I finished season 2, the episodes are short so it's easy tbh if u just let the PC playing while u do other stuff. Again, u have to watch it thinking it's another universe where Anakin is not fucking insane because the things he does are way too good. I hear shut he say n think "oh I know your ass ain't saying this"  Also it's so goofy him and padme being sneaky like girl half of the universe knows...Fri, 15 Dec 2023 14:06:11 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1013753https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1013753Why don't I write these in my notes before. My phone restarted while writing this. Like every fucking time. So I'll be more concise ig. The series is. well. Ab the clone wars, it takes place between the second and third movie of the prequel trilogy, republic vs separatists, Jedi vs sith Lords n co And having watched the movies before, it's kinda weird seeing the characters fighting one guy again a...Thu, 14 Dec 2023 11:47:40 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1011658https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1011658The movie starts in a beautiful, amazing, showstopping, default cyan text in arial-like font and suddenly a pop culture classic is near someone using windows movie maker for a tutorial on how to get free minecraft in 2012. I love it.  George doesnt state just that the galaxy is far away but also!!! this shit happened long time ago. You cant fly your way into the galaxy and meet the characters, fuc...Wed, 13 Dec 2023 01:36:46 +0000