https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=1866508The most recent Blog Entries by the User "Toko Fukawa" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1364703https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1364703Blood, blood On the floor I can’t take this Anymore   Blood, blood On the blade I just need A little pain   Blood, blood RunnSat, 18 Jan 2025 23:37:31 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1364699https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1364699I want a hug I want it bad But whatever I touch Turns to ash   If I get too close Or graze your skin No one will recognize What you once had been   ISat, 18 Jan 2025 23:33:41 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1364697https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1364697I’m on my bed Writing this Nothing but Empty flesh   Rotting away Turning to ash I just wasn’t Meant to last   I’m dying, I’mSat, 18 Jan 2025 23:32:27 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1364692https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1364692I love you I really do Why do I Keep hurting you?   I can’t seem To get it right Try and try As I might   I am shatteredSat, 18 Jan 2025 23:30:56 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1364690https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1364690Flip a coin Tail or heads? Deciding if My life ends   My mood switches Like a light Flickering From dark to bright   Burning sunSat, 18 Jan 2025 23:28:52 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1306368https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1306368You say you love me I know it's not true Even though I'll always love you You always lie It's part of your game My face always ends Up tear stained You say you care Then switch your act Now I see It's love you lack You don't care How I feel I know your love Was never real You make me hurt You make me cry All I wantWed, 13 Nov 2024 22:23:10 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1306365https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1306365I need help I'm not Bea I'm not him And he's not me I am Toko I'm 15 And I promise I'm not mean I like poems If you couldn't tell And I really hate When you yell I need help With what? I don't know I really swear I'm trying though I try and try But yet I fail As I fight Tooth and nail I hate my bWed, 13 Nov 2024 22:20:16 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1306361https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1306361Run your mouth About how I'm rude That's all you Ever do I try my best To no avail It's always about How I fail Yes I cry And I scream And you all see me As thirteen I'm fifteen She was less It always ends up One big mess She was six Bea is not You all left her Out to rot.Wed, 13 Nov 2024 22:15:23 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1306355https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1306355Static, yes That's how I feel It makes me question Is anything real? In this body That is not mine I act like Everything's fine I'm not "me" Or rather Bea I am Toko Can't you see? I must never Be myself I must be Someone else.Wed, 13 Nov 2024 22:12:21 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285516https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285516It's not fair It's just not fair I'm in pain And you don't care You cut You threaten death I'll hate you till My very last breath They all tell me To forgive But because of you I can't live "You should just Let it go" It hurt me more Than you'll ever know You say you hurt That you're in pain I hope you Die in vainWed, 16 Oct 2024 00:58:47 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285511https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285511From cutting paper To cutting skin The world is Full of sin I punish myself For others wrongs I cut Lines so long I was supposed to be pure But you took that away Now I have to relive it Everyday I can't live my life I can't handle my mind I seek closure I'll never find I'll never get back The time I lost You got reliefWed, 16 Oct 2024 00:51:33 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285508https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285508"Go to sleep It's okay, You don't need To feel this way You'll feel better When you wake" I told myself Everyday I cry hard Every night Every time I hear you fight I try to be Good enough But my attempts Are simply dust If only I Could find a way To make you happy For just one day But I know thatWed, 16 Oct 2024 00:45:45 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285500https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285500I am sitting On my floor The earth splits open As you open the door I grab the ledge You reach for me As the lava Bubbles beneath You touch my hand And get cut by the thorns I cut them earlier I could've sworn With tears in my eyes I let go It's better this way That I know The ground closes To hide the gore I am to burnWed, 16 Oct 2024 00:36:08 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285497https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285497Anger That's all I am I want to be Okay again I want to scream I want to yell I'm filled with hatred Can't you tell? I hate this feeling But I hate me more I want to cut More than ever before You don't deserve My anger and hate I truly think you are great I wish this ending Was happy some way But I will never Be oWed, 16 Oct 2024 00:33:00 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1276231https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1276231Suffer in pain I'll never feel the same After what you did For so long I hid You broke my trust Now I must Live in fear Of all those near Cursed for life With pain and strife To never feel safe In this place You always lie I always cry All alone No place called home Locking my feelings in a vault It's all your fault I hide away Everyday Because you left mThu, 03 Oct 2024 23:41:40 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1276225https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1276225I'm a robot With mechanical parts I have no feelings I have no heart I'll just reboot If I get hurt Restart To make it work Try not to rust From crying hard My feelings seem Oh so far A piece of me Still hangs on But probably Not for long I'm a machine With turning gears I hope The end is near.Thu, 03 Oct 2024 23:37:17 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1276221https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1276221I try to love I really do But I'm only good at Hurting you A thorn heart Inside of me Eventually You will see All I do Is hurt those I love Which is what I'm most scared of My thorn heart Will make you bleed You'll be better If I leave I want you safe I want you free But that's only possible Without me.Thu, 03 Oct 2024 23:32:39 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1276124https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1276124I am a butterfly Who can't see her wings I am a box Hiding things I am a geode Who's worth lies within I am a killer Living in sin I am a liar Who can't tell the truth I am a doll For others use I am a mouse Small and weak I am a pipe That has a leak I am hopeless I am unloved All I want Is a hug.Thu, 03 Oct 2024 20:35:06 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1276122https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1276122Blood is red Bruises are blue You hate me I hate you too I hurt myself For your joy All I am Is your toy I'll do as you ask No matter the cost Because the true me Has been lost Memories I keep Inside of me Of the things I had to see No one cares It's sad but true My only comfort Is a noose.Thu, 03 Oct 2024 20:32:15 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1246840https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1246840Forgiveness Such an odd word One of the oddest things I've ever heard So tell me why I should forgive When you made it So hard to live They say it's easy To let it go But how would they Even know? Why should I Forgive what they did When I was Just a kid I cannot Just "let it go" You want my forgiveness? The answerMon, 26 Aug 2024 20:02:38 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1246835https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1246835She cuts herself To numb the pain She feels like Life has no gain Feeling higher With each cut She feels like Giving up Watching blood Pour down her arm As she continues To self harm The next moment She wakes up Realizing What she's done Cleaning up Her blood mess No one would Ever guess.Mon, 26 Aug 2024 19:59:02 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1246834https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1246834She slams the door With tears in her eyes She's trying hard Not to cry Her room is messy Things on the floor As she steps From the door Tears spill Her cheeks get wet There are things They just don't get Laying down She wipes her tears Trying to hide From her fears Wishing she Weren't this way She gets ready For tMon, 26 Aug 2024 19:55:36 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1246829https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1246829Long ago I was top of the class I answered any question That was asked But then it happened It suddenly stopped I could only think of All that I lost I wasn't smart I wasn't the top I wasn't prepared For how far I dropped I was barely even Getting by I didn't Want to try The flame of a gift Beautiful without a doubt ButMon, 26 Aug 2024 19:47:40 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1246825https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1246825She cut her wrists Since twelve years old Trying to just Fit in her mold Slicing her skin Watching blood drip She loved the way The pain would nip She hated herself They hated her too Then she realized She had nothing to lose She decided To take some pills Until her heart Became still She took a pill Or two or three She finally stopped At fifteen Her momMon, 26 Aug 2024 19:40:16 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1242275https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1242275There once was a girl In a castle tall Never allowed Outside the wall She know not of what Horrors await She knew not of what She'd have to escape Someone lead her Outside the wall Just to laugh And watch her fall She tried to get up But he pushed her down Pounding her Into the ground Hating herself But hating him moreTue, 20 Aug 2024 22:09:08 +0000