https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=1899691The most recent Blog Entries by the User "Reficul " on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1447323https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1447323I think I'm going to stop going to my psychiatrist because every med that she makes me try makes me feel worse in some way.  I'm either completely numb for hours, or I can't wake up because she gives me the strongest sleeping pills that are basically like a horse tranquilizer for me. lol. >_> I don't think she is ever listening to what I say. I know there isn't really medicine for BPD but DAMN!!! ...Wed, 26 Feb 2025 16:20:40 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1447321https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1447321Every time I feel really sad and low, coming home and seeing my cat's face always cheers me up. My favorite is Tangy. He's a short-haired red mackerel tabby who is very handsome and mean. I love to bury my face in his pelt because he smells so good.  I wish I could hug him forever. He is just the cutest kitty in the world and I love him so much. I feel like he's my soulmate in animal form. I love ...Wed, 26 Feb 2025 16:13:50 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1099706https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1099706I LIKE HOW NOTHING HAS CHANGED HERE LOL o.o time capsule fr. IG I AM BACK?? UNLESS IT GETS DEAD AGAIN LOLThu, 08 Feb 2024 06:14:40 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1099705https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1099705I am Reficxl! :3Thu, 08 Feb 2024 06:13:57 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=822726https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=822726Update on my 'best friend'  She said my trauma isn't that bad even though she's the one who caused me so much of said trauma lol.  I am genuinely so disgusted she said that behind my back and I actually never want to see her stupid face again.  Real ironic coming from the girl who lies about everything for sympathy points and attention. At least my pain is actually real 😂😂😂 I'm so salty Wed, 26 Jul 2023 16:24:35 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=821203https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=821203My biggest regret in life is ever meeting my best friend.  She always ruins my life and makes my life a living hell and never actually cares to change.  I know this but I always forgive her each time she crawls back despite all the times she lies to me and stabs me in the back.  I really need to break out of this cycle.  I'm tired of loving someone who always hurts me and clearly doesn't love me t...Tue, 25 Jul 2023 16:53:30 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=819412https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=819412My favorite emotes that I seriously need to start using again are as follows: owo o_o :3 XD :3c ^_^ （＾ω＾） T_T uwuMon, 24 Jul 2023 16:03:36 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=815356https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=815356UGHHHH I'M SO BOREEED SOMEBODY TALK TO ME AND PRETEND THEY'RE INTERESTED IN MEEEE PLEEEEAAASEEEFri, 21 Jul 2023 19:59:42 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=808827https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=808827Sometimes it feels like my body is full of trash and that it's rotting.  It feels horrible and like I'm a decaying corpse.  It makes me feel disgusting and all my limbs and organs feel heavy with lead and maggots.  Idk if that's just me doe 😇 Mon, 17 Jul 2023 17:45:47 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=804305https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=804305I'm so excited for the Barbie movie guys I'm going to dress so obnoxiously pink and I have a blonde wig and everything!!! I'm going to the midnight showing lol.  Cursed Barbie moment :3. Fri, 14 Jul 2023 20:50:18 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=798950https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=798950My girlfriend's 20th birthday is this week so I've been trying to plan it all out.  It's actually really fun I like doing stuff like this for her.  I hope she'll have fun!  We're having it be fish / ocean themed and it's super cute :3.  I'm excited for her lol. Tue, 11 Jul 2023 19:34:14 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=797209https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=797209I miss feeling innocent and like I was special and that the world was a wonderful place.  Sometimes I get the familiar feeling I got when I was a kid and it's so strong.  It feels like I woke up from a long dream.  I want to cling onto it forever so that I'll feel alive again.  This is me.  I'm awake again.  I'll go back to a deep sleep again soon but right now I'm here. Mon, 10 Jul 2023 21:46:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=792494https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=792494It's so HOT outside lately so me and my friends are going to go out to the pool in a bit! I'm actually so hype because I love swimming and I haven't gone at all this summer. Yay! ^_^. Me, my girlfriend, and best friend are going to play the new mario kart DLC before we go and eat chili dogs :3. Yesterday, I ended up feeling a lot better because I went to Art Walk and I ate my Mcdonalds. I love uns...Sat, 08 Jul 2023 21:00:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=790393https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=790393Kinda feeling poopy today.  I can't wait to go home and turn my brain off for a while lol.  Maybe going out will make me feel better I dunno. Fri, 07 Jul 2023 21:39:13 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=788642https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=788642Hi!! I'm new here and looking for friends! If anyone wants to chat feel free to message me or add me on discord.   My discord is: reficxlThu, 06 Jul 2023 20:55:55 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=788641https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=788641Hi!! I'm new here and looking for friends! If anyone wants to chat feel free to message me or add me on discord.   My discord is: reficxlThu, 06 Jul 2023 20:54:53 +0000