Blog Entries by "✧･ﾟ: Willow :･ﾟ✧" | SpaceHey

dreams

Tue, 23 Apr 2024 08:45:04 +0000

I feel as though i'm dreaming a lot of the time to the point its noticeable. Everything is just foggy and time moves faster than ever. It feels like two days ago was both an hour ago and years away. I worry about things that dont matter I hope someday I get to wake up. Even if just to know where sleep ends.

Self Portrait

Sun, 21 Apr 2024 03:08:22 +0000

Ii m not real,.,

beauty

Sun, 31 Mar 2024 07:55:19 +0000

Spotify gave me a 3 hour playlist of so many artists who have under 400 listeners, all beautiful ambient tracks and it just feels so unique and special that I get to hear the souls of all of these beautiful artists.

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Sun, 10 Mar 2024 05:47:26 +0000

I forgot to mention how bad T is There is so much hair, way toofast I despise it In fucking hours I smell terrible no matter how much effort I put into smelling good, i hate how I look every time I see myself I FUCKING HATE THE LIBIDO ON THIS POSION FUCK

Venting,,s. orry

Mon, 19 Feb 2024 17:07:19 +0000

every day tthat im off E feels worse than the last.. I hate mirrors so much. April cannot come fast enough., I nneed to fucking get back on HRT

Way over then

Tue, 06 Feb 2024 07:10:21 +0000

Infinity is only as big as we allow it to be.,

Meow

Tue, 30 Jan 2024 08:08:05 +0000

mew

Mirrors

Sat, 27 Jan 2024 08:38:51 +0000

Music is the only thing that is consistently able to make me cry. I think i've only just begun to understand why. Music is a mirror, a reflection of humanity, someone's, my humanity. Music is a reflection of the past, at least to me. Both the music others have made, which haunt me in such amazing ways, ripping me from the present to when I first listened, and my own, a reflection of who I was and ...

Spotify Wrapped (for artists)

Thu, 30 Nov 2023 02:30:52 +0000

Anyone who listens to me and also reads this, thank you so so so so much for the amazing year and listening to me,, It means so much >/// <

I prefer biking

Wed, 29 Nov 2023 10:39:49 +0000

I write these too much. So many unpublished things I've written because I don't value my thoughts enough to even post them on my own blog. I know I complain about my life and everything too much, and that I'm pretty boring. Somehow something as simple as going a walk is full of expression and relevance. god. Most of the thoughts I have that come through the numbing wall of avoidance that is my day...

2:39 AM

Sat, 11 Nov 2023 09:43:02 +0000

Every now and then I rediscover the song "Never See Me Again" and i feel like i've reached a sort of checkpoint in my life. I love all of the beautiful people that i've been lucky enough to know and talk to for the last long while. I want to blog more but between this public one and my other one (privately public) and my inability to feel like it's worthwhile or that what I say/think has any meani...

the future

Tue, 03 Oct 2023 21:05:25 +0000

I've always avoided thinking about the future because a part of me *knows* that I'll die before that ever happens. It feels unreal to think about the long term effects of medically transitioning because I have to think about something that I don't even know will exist. I look in the mirror and cant fathom that HRT will actually feminize me in any noticeable way and ill just castrate myself without...

HRT

Sun, 17 Sep 2023 02:53:37 +0000

I called campus health and they scheduled an appointment with someone so I could possibly start HRT, but instead they just game me a counselor who knew nothing about it so now I have to wait till next week to meet with another counselor so they can refer me to someone who actually knows what they're doing. .-. aaa I wish I was so sure of myself but at times I doubt my descision..,,

Meteor

Mon, 11 Sep 2023 07:05:15 +0000

As I lie in a field Of crystal-faded Stars And headstones of my past selves Lined with roses black and blue The inky black sky cradles my limp weak body As I wait for eternity to remember me as I truly am I silently beg, for my impact to be small The Stars glow with a beauty unlike any other In one instant it’s over Decimating what could have b

A visitow? UwU hmm… indeed

Fri, 08 Sep 2023 00:10:36 +0000

i have swept wong enouwgh. The kingdom of heaven has wong since fowgotten my name T-T, and i am eagew >w < to make them wemembew. Howevew, the bwood of minos stains uw hands, and i muwst admit… i'm cuwwiouws abouwt uw skiwws, weapon. And so, befowe i teaw down the cities and cru

I hate my body

Tue, 05 Sep 2023 20:00:41 +0000

I really don’t understand,, I know my metabolism is slow but Im down to a meal and a snack a day for the past 3 weeks and I feel fatter than fucking ever. I hate my fucking body and I hate that even when I try to change I can never fucking do so And my face- My fucking facial hair comes in so fast literally minutes after a clean shave I have a dark chin I hate this so much

rain

Sat, 02 Sep 2023 19:16:56 +0000

It should always be a 50% chance of light rain every day. Im tired of this “once every two weeks” bull**** I love raaiinn do muchh >w <

rain

Fri, 01 Sep 2023 19:40:01 +0000

It should always be a 50% chance of light rain every day. Im tired of this “once every two weeks” bull**** I love raaiinn do muchh >w <

the signs were there,,.

Fri, 01 Sep 2023 07:17:12 +0000

Looking back, there was a time in 3rd grade when I started getting leg hair and I used my moms razor to shave, except I didnt know to use shaving cream, or how hard to push, so I literally just scraped the top layer of skin off before realizing I was doing it wrong and got scared… I told my parents the razor just so happened to fall in the shower at the right angle to do that -w- I think little me...

Everytime ive put my phone up to go to sleep in the past year and a half :3

Thu, 31 Aug 2023 03:11:43 +0000

Meow: 4/26/22, 11:37 PM 4/27/22, 11:44 PM 4/28/22 11:14 PM 4/30/22, 1:26 AM 5/1/22, 1:41 AM 5/2/22, 12:43 AM 5/4/22, 11:33 PM 5/5/22, 11:25 PM 5/6/22, 11:12 PM 5/8/22, 2:15 AM 5/8/22, 11:49 PM 5/9/22, 11:01 PM 5/11/22, 12:01 AM 5/11/22, 11:01 PM 5/12/22, 10:51 PM 5/14/22, 1:11 AM 5/15/22, 1:08 AM 5/15/22, 10:00 PM 5/15/22, 10:01 PM 5/15/22, 11:26 PM

aloonnee at the edge of a universe, humming a tunee

Wed, 30 Aug 2023 07:51:57 +0000

For merely dreaming we were snow. A siren sounds, like the goddess who promises endless apologies of paradise. And only she can make it right. So things are different tonight. *Cue the next coolest 7 minutes you’ll have this month*

The universe is vast, and yet...

Wed, 30 Aug 2023 01:47:58 +0000

I think I've just witnessed the most beautiful person in the galaxy, and they work in the dining hall at my uni, ., Their hair was in the objectively best hairstyle (ponytail with some hair left out, dangling from the sides). Their eyeliner was messy and perfect, and the choker they were wearing was a perfect match with the uniform outfit they had to wear...,,. They seemed to be being taught the ...

Glitch art >w<

Tue, 29 Aug 2023 06:09:55 +0000

I really think this one turned out good :3

Whar?

Sun, 27 Aug 2023 20:38:29 +0000

Blog!?! :3