https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=2038168The most recent Blog Entries by the User "𝖇umblebee." on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1288617https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=128861710/20/2024 and suddenly all at once out of nowhere: i wanted to pick you flowers. i wanted to sing you songs. whether its fleeting or not will be left to time. but why not enjoy the present? why not enjoy every moment i have with you? will you stick around? will you become a forever? my hands tremble at my sides. i try to laugh ofSun, 20 Oct 2024 07:04:07 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1163239https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1163239soo, it's summer now. technically. i still have quite a few assignments to get in before final grades are submitted but nothing i cant handle. ive been at this point with more on my plate before. im just kind of at the end of my rope right now? well, almost, at least. and not literally, i'm fine. i think? i just. at this time next year i'll be done with school, or damn near close. what am i gonna ...Sun, 05 May 2024 02:46:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1163201https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=11632014/26/2024 none of it feels right off my tongue despite how raw it all is. and it feels wrong to say that so i dont know whats right anymore. my isolation is imminent and i feel guilty for dreading it. i wonder if i'll ever really get used to walking in circles. i wonder the next time a pair of hands will grip my waist. despite everything i still feel disposable. desSun, 05 May 2024 01:54:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1156643https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=11566434/19/2024 i don't think the places i'll go after this one will satisfy me as much as they should. once i got a taste of what it could be like i knew there would never be any going back. what am i going to do beyond that? will i end up mirroring you again and scream it all at people in desperate+oftentimes futile attempts @ being understood? people listened toWed, 24 Apr 2024 07:11:56 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1151295https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=11512954/9/2024 it’s warm outside. the last time this happened classes were cancelled the next day due 2 a blizzard. now everyone is outside again, savoring the spring comfort before it inevitably rolls too hot into summer & everyone starts yearning for winter’s bite again despite all their previous complaints about it. i am no different in this regard. the weather—Mon, 15 Apr 2024 06:18:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1145859https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=11458594/1/2024 w— no matter which way i see or say these things, they just don't seem real in all the best possible ways. i'm not even certain this will turn out any good but my hand missed my pen which now yearns for it even moreso now that its godfather has seen his influence on its craft firsthand (i say this like it's any good!). my feet are just barely lifting off thFri, 05 Apr 2024 23:48:57 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1145247https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1145247well it's been a minute. i have a feeling that this was never gonna gt done unless i did what i am doing right now, which is forcing myself to sit down and write this. so much comes to mind. i'm high, but not in a fun way, it's at the point where i'm like self aware and shit but my head really fucking hurts and diufuchvbj the advil isn't kicking in and it's annoying me and i've got work tomorrow a...Fri, 05 Apr 2024 03:30:48 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1143521https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=11435214/2/2024 still don't know what to title these. maybe i'll treat them like subjects of unsent emails. the recipient list is maxed out but at the same time its completely empty. you'd have to fax your way into my heart instead. i cant stop thinking about this movie i watched last week. i guess it did its job. i've been itching to be inspired and i thought i hit the grTue, 02 Apr 2024 16:07:31 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1125513https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=11255133/3/2024 whatever resides in my soul has yet to reach its full potential. i have a long way to go. the sun peeks beyond the horizon & my heart flees into its jail cell. looking up but the top just never seems to get any closer. one day there's gonna be nothing left but dust. to bTue, 12 Mar 2024 16:53:42 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1123224https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=11232243/9/2024 i caught myself missing you earlier. i was quick to correct myself and rotate my sorrows to their default setting. if you hold it up to the light it kind of disappears but if you tilt your head right you'll see it's all there. i love you but sometimes i wanna strangle you. i'm the day the leaves start to turn brown. the last protestant bite of chill in theSat, 09 Mar 2024 08:10:47 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1119615https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1119615it is 6:17 am i said i would start on my homework about twelve hours ago i got back from work and then was like i will play a few rounds of turf war. and then i will take a quick nap and tyhen do my homework. the Quick Nap ended up being 4 hours long and i woke up at about a quarter to 1am and like halfway through fobs set in sacramento. so Obviously i had to fucking watch (fuck the magic 8 ball b...Mon, 04 Mar 2024 11:39:40 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1118777https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=11187772/25/2024 my favorite superstition is rushing to locate a wooden surface to knock upon after saying something with just a bit too much hope. tempting fate is a sin— it loves to watch the light die from the eyes of the unlucky and the unloved. to make an attempt at retracting my statement from its cruel jaws i rap my knuckles tentatively upon my desk, chair, whateverSun, 03 Mar 2024 07:13:30 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1118763https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=11187632/6/2024 sometimes i feel like i'm alone in looking out at the world. the windows are tinted so no one can look inside and see how much im hurting. no one even knows im there, i think. kaleidoscope butterflies— kaleidoscope eyes. kisses & dreams that are burnt at the stake for requesting freedom. stars in your eyes that go out one by one as the days pass. ink spilliSun, 03 Mar 2024 06:47:31 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1114644https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1114644i've been meaning to get to writing another one of these for, like, the past 3 days, i have a whole list of things to talk about but i think i am sick and tired of lists so i will just go wherever my brain takes me... right after i fuck up this pizza it's 2:40am i woke up from a """""""nap"""""""""" about two hours ago and only like 45min ago was able to drag myself out of bed and get food/prepare...Mon, 26 Feb 2024 08:51:17 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1111414https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1111414[ written 1—27—24 , put the pen down 11:11pm ] a flute of champagne tastes sweeter when you look my way. i hope someday soon you'll look at the sky and the stars look just the way they did that one night when you were twelve. the buttons on one side of your coat that wouldnt snap on the other side. they were just for fashion not for function you told me. realiThu, 22 Feb 2024 08:40:45 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1111408https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1111408waow!! so my first real post here. i know i'm probably going to be talking to the void most of the time here but i'm used to it anyway 'cause that's all i do on my priv twitter where i spend all my time. but if i see one more ad or checkmark or bot or temu logo or Anything i'll probably end up tearing my eyeballs out so here i am— i've missed browsing forum sites and customizing my profiles... the...Thu, 22 Feb 2024 08:19:07 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1110474https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1110474TWICE THE DREAMS BUT HALF THE LOVE. quinn/bee | 21 | they/bee | audhd | latino • occasional artist, sporadic poet; •Wed, 21 Feb 2024 07:31:30 +0000