https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=2262978The most recent Blog Entries by the User "M̵̝͒O̸̝̒R̸̯͗T̷̺̉ ̸̙̓ C̶͔̽Ǫ̵̈́R̴̞͆V̵͓̊U̷̜͆S̴̪͝" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1874073https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1874073Went out clubbing with my friends last Saturday.  I had a feeling that I shouldn't have. I regret so much. It's my fault for choosing to go with them, if only I listened to my inner voice warning me. I'm gonna keep my friends away from me for a long while. And I hate my sister.Mon, 11 Aug 2025 10:58:09 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1795137https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1795137The other day, I ran into some dudes who were new to a hobby that I participate competitively in. I approached them and we got to talking for a bit. In the middle of the talk, one of them went up said they recognized me, saying I was the "emo twink femboy" that wins a lot in tournaments.  Man, I really did not want to be known as the local emo twink champion. Wed, 16 Jul 2025 17:54:00 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1642662https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1642662My friends and I took my sister out clubbing with us. It was her first time doing so ever.  I'm happy to say that she drinks harder than I do and that she had a lot of fun and that we protected her from creeps most effectively.Fri, 30 May 2025 14:19:07 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1589566https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1589566I won at a recent grand tournament, the biggest one in my country. The person who gets to win 1st place gets to be sent to America to be the first person ever to represent our nation. Unfortunately, after a close bid and all my determination, I won only 3rd place out of the 46 people that participated.  I won't fret much though, I still managed to win a decent amount of money from the entire thing...Thu, 08 May 2025 18:19:32 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1554800https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1554800"12AM Yearning"Tue, 22 Apr 2025 18:30:42 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1540744https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1540744"The Unheard Beatings of a Heart" I love you now, yet you'll never know, My feelings yet remain so silenThu, 17 Apr 2025 14:44:25 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1539114https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1539114The Holy Week is a big deal where I'm from with much of the days being considered major holidays. Not a religious person, but I'm thankful for these days because of the relief they give. No work, no requests, no need to be busy. I'm free to hole up in my room, sleep to Decalius, read and re-read some books, paint some miniatures or play Drakengard or NieR.Wed, 16 Apr 2025 17:18:50 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1520307https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1520307My dad's cancer went away completely after his colorectal surgery. The doctor said out of all her cases, he's like the 3rd person this has happened to. I was so damn prepared to make sacrifices and prepare saving up for treatments but I was so stunned because I was always expecting the worst. This outcome was never in my expectations. The costs of the hospital room, professional fees, and other st...Tue, 08 Apr 2025 05:23:01 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1508689https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1508689My dad got colon cancer and had to go through colorectal surgery so I had to take on his work for him as it couldn't just be left alone. It's only been a week and it has been exhausting juggling his work while helping with paperwork related to seeking financial aid for him. The old man has given and sacrificed so much for me, so I figure its time I trudge on for him. I'm just hoping that the aid t...Tue, 01 Apr 2025 12:10:34 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1491729https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1491729Went to a gun range to shoot today. Haven't fired a gun for 4 years so I started off with 9mm. It was nice and the smell of gunpowder really brought me back. My accuracy dwindled a bit tho, but I intend to come back and fix that.Sat, 22 Mar 2025 17:34:22 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1485757https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1485757Lately I've been feeling that stupid melancholic yearning feeling and I hate it. It makes me ache on the inside and it doesn't go away for a long while.Wed, 19 Mar 2025 14:47:21 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1475781https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1475781Years ago, I used to have this nightmare of falling again and again into some black empty void and I'd wake up with an ache in my chest. My heart would beat really fast and I would have a hard time going back to bed. It always happened at around the periods of 2-3am. At some point, this all just stopped happening to me and I went on living better with my sleep no longer being interrupted.  The nig...Thu, 13 Mar 2025 03:50:30 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1444961https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1444961Been a while since I've been here as I've been busy with work. Really heavy stuff. Life's been good though, I still had time to do stuff that I wanted. Relationships have been healthy. But yeah, things have been a bit better and I hope it stays that way.Tue, 25 Feb 2025 08:09:31 +0000