https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=2583169The most recent Blog Entries by the User "dan" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1612005https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1612005! this entry mentions nsfw topics but it doesnt go into any graphic details ! it is also very tmi so i am a writer. im not trying to do it professionally, i do it for fun. i rarely share my stuff with anyone unless its something very specific/niche. ive been writing for half of my life, and when i first began most of the stuff i was writing wasSun, 18 May 2025 21:38:03 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1447831https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1447831as of late ive been finding it really hard to do things that are good for me. there are avenues and opportunities for me to get my life on track so i can get a job and stuff and have money but i dont want to do any of that stuff, but at the same time i do. i dont wanna have to interact with new people so i can get through this stuff but at the same time i do. everything i need to do i dont want to...Wed, 26 Feb 2025 21:47:24 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1359173https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1359173my mom has been in the hospital for the past week. i havent gone to see her, but i probably will at some point. she was in the icu with sepsis and pneumonia at first, but shes doing better and they moved her to a regular room. of course, i am worried about her condition and i want her to get better soon. i still hate her though. i havent had any one-on-one phone calls with her, all of the news abo...Mon, 13 Jan 2025 23:47:11 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1339056https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1339056everyday everything is getting further and further away from me. the people i love, the things i love to do, my memories, just everything i care about is getting away from me. my depression is at its worst right now. i can hardly bring myself to shower when i am caked in grease. water bottles and soda cans are piling up on my desk. ive been wearing the same clothes for a week. i keep forgetting to...Mon, 23 Dec 2024 20:37:05 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1325204https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1325204recent times havent been all too great, what with the election results, bird flu showing up in humans, the genocide in the middle east getting worse, and other things i cant remember right now. the only good thing about right now is i dont have art block and im not on my period, so yay me. i opened spacehey to talk about my ex again. seems to be something im going to keep bringing up for a while. ...Fri, 06 Dec 2024 10:01:31 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1278909https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1278909hi blog i've come to write about how i don't think i was wrong in my last relationship and how i was wronged by my ex. for the sake of anonymity i'm gonna call them jake ! I'M PUTTING A DISCLAIMER ON THIS ONE, DO NOT READ UNLESS YOU ARE 18 AND OLDER ! firstly, i want to highlight how our relationship was before we were actually dating each other. we met through a mutual friend of oursMon, 07 Oct 2024 05:58:04 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1269233https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1269233back again with more harrowing and awful shit straight from my heart. theres been a lot going on with me recently so i dont even know where to start, or how to put this into words. i woke up an hour ago and i just felt so empty, so annoyed, so over life. i just didn't want to be here, and i still kind of don't right now. i'm not gonna do anything, but i'm just saying i'd have rather stayed asleep....Wed, 25 Sep 2024 17:27:22 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1229541https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1229541im not having a great time right now. i feel so lonely and bored and sad because my best friend doesnt want to hang out with me. there are always lulls in our friendship, where we will hang out nonstop, every day of the week, from afternoon-ish times to 4 am, then one day it just stops. he starts getting bored, or getting interested in another game, or hanging out with our other friends. hes basic...Fri, 02 Aug 2024 06:22:38 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1227482https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1227482there are so many things that i regret in my life. things that i did do, things that i didn't do, things i said, and shouldn't have said. i guess they make us. i had a memory come to me in the strangest place: the toilet. i ate a whole pizza a few hours ago, and my stomach did not take kindly to it, but i had a sad memory sitting there, while i was (somewhat) emptying my bowels. i was 13, enrolled...Tue, 30 Jul 2024 05:15:57 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1219226https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1219226welp. its officially been one whole year since my ex left me. i feel surprisingly okay, i guess.  about a month or two ago, i sent them an email apologizing for my actions, and it made me feel a lot better. i hope it somehow helped them as well, but i will never know. technically, the anniversary was last night at 1 in the morning, but i was sleeping as soundly as a baby, no thoughts of my ex in m...Thu, 18 Jul 2024 20:26:22 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1202376https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1202376these blogs are happening more frequently than i'd like, but here we are. i'm probably having some kind of episode. i don't know what i have if i even have anything that isn't anxiety and depression, but it's been beating my ass for a while. i haven't seriously left the house in a month, and 90% of that time is spent in my room. the other 10% is bathroom runs, snack runs, and the occasional going ...Tue, 25 Jun 2024 11:44:15 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1200831https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1200831rant that isn't too serious, just kind of pisses me off. so i'm a digital artist and i post my art online, as most usually do nowadays. i've been doing this since i was maybe 13 and i'm 19-20 now. the way i got started out was by drawing fanart of my favorite youtuber at the time, not expecting it to get any attention at all, just gently kissing my drawing and sending it into the vast sea that is ...Sun, 23 Jun 2024 11:23:13 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1198525https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1198525i think all of my friends are slipping away from me like sand through my fingers. i don't think i've seriously had a conversation with any of them in over a month. i haven't done anything meaningful with them in over a month, we haven't hung out in over a month. i've reached out, but it's all just quick and short replies. that's not a real conversation. i want my friends to come back. i miss them ...Thu, 20 Jun 2024 12:47:44 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1185528https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1185528hello. i havent needed to use this site since last month, but i think im having another awakening, or whatever.  this all started the other night, when i was scrolling pinterest for some art inspiration, but i saw a cool non-human looking costume and felt a very strong connection to it. so, i created a new board, and i called it "gender/transition goal" not being entirely serious about it. i conti...Mon, 03 Jun 2024 18:53:39 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1160629https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1160629hello. i went to therapy today and it was alright. :) i'm feeling okay right now. watched some cartoons, ate some pasta, drew some things.  i was thinking earlier today about a lot of things but there was one thing i kept coming back to and pondering on: apologizing & forgiveness. there are two people i'd like to apologize to and they're my mom and my ex. yes, they did hurt me badly, but i am not ...Wed, 01 May 2024 02:43:11 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1150269https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1150269hello. i didn't get to finish my last entry because i got pulled away. the reason isn't relevant but it's been stressful and annoying. that is all i will say about it. i'm here again because i'm having a not so great time right now. it's sort of related to entry #2 in the way of my relationship with making and keeping friends. it's more about loneliness. i have a therapy appointment on the 30th an...Sat, 13 Apr 2024 05:34:43 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1147133https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1147133hello.  i find it difficult to keep friends and i don't understand why. growing up, i was always able to have a bunch of friends, always have someone to hang out with. i don't know how i did it but i did. nowadays it's so difficult for me to find people i think are actually interesting or chill enough to try and be friends with. i've tried so hard so many times to make and keep friends but it alwa...Mon, 08 Apr 2024 01:46:13 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1143942https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1143942hello. i forgot to mention i may talk about things unrelated to trauma/sadness/anger. this one's gonna be about my feelings i have towards someone i know. i have a friend who i would consider to be one of my very best friends and, for the sake of staying anonymous, he's going to be called john.  we met ten years ago in minecraft along with a few other friends i still have to this day. my first imp...Wed, 03 Apr 2024 04:03:41 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1142239https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1142239hello. i wanted to expand upon what my page is going to be for so i'm doing that here in this entry.  i want to get a few things out of the way: i am not trying to be an arg/creepypasta/whatever. i am not looking for attention. everything i write in these entries will be as truthful as i feel to make them. i am not here to make friends so do not send me friend requests. i'm not looking for sympath...Sun, 31 Mar 2024 21:31:46 +0000