https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=2729848The most recent Blog Entries by the User "₊˚ෆ🫧raincandy🍡🌧️" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2086431https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2086431im really happy rn, i don’t know if i talked about it or not but i’ve been living in my living room for a while since my grandma kinda needed the space and i think it’s been like 3-4 months? she’s permanently in an old folks home which i have mixed feelings about (i miss her a little but she’s also the reason i thought i deserved to die at age 9 so okay) but the main positive about it is that i ac...Wed, 11 Feb 2026 22:39:36 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1972594https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1972594psat scores just came in and i tried to tell my dad about it and i hate him so fucking much. i told him i got a 1090, which is higher than the state average and he didnt even care. i was really proud of it because my grades have been bad, and it kind of felt like the test was proving that i wasnt actually stupid but all he told me was to get my grades up and then hed be happy. obviously hes allowe...Thu, 06 Nov 2025 02:20:11 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1960027https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1960027i dont know what to do so im crying again. i started living in my living room so now i feel even more exposed. i started with a new therapist but i wont be seeing her again for two weeks so this is all i have. im just really tired of feeling like nobody. i used to be really smart, and it was kind of the only thing i had going for me. i liked drawing, but i wasnt good at it, but i could at least fe...Sun, 26 Oct 2025 01:23:35 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1932759https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1932759i almost passed the fuck out during first period today cuz i had to do this dumbass recitation and NO ONE was okay during it i left the room after i did mine to go puke and there were people legit crying in the bathroom over this one fucking recitation :sob: it wasnt even like a hard recitation it was just fucking enchanted with magic that gives people panic attacks i am too awesome for this let m...Wed, 01 Oct 2025 14:35:28 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1909466https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1909466im snotting all over my keyboard right now but i really dont want to die. i know i say it all the time that i hate everyone, but its not true, i love everyone in my life so much and i want everyone to be happy so badly. i want to give up so bad but i know i dont really want to. the world wont be the same without me, but the world will be exactly the same. the universe is the way it is now because ...Thu, 11 Sep 2025 04:38:22 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1907053https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1907053im so tired of everything, the world is so tiring. school started again, and i missed a bunch because i was sick. im failing four classes, and the year only just started. my mom keeps getting on my ass about it, even though im working as hard as i can. surprise, but you telling me that im failing doesnt magically make me passing. i know its really hard and annoying for her, but i honestly dont car...Mon, 08 Sep 2025 23:58:48 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1869620https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1869620im crying in bed right nw and i dont know what to do i don't know hwy im such a fucking crybaby but i cant do anything else. im really hungry but my parents never buy enough food so im eating the same things every day and im tired of eating out of cans i feel like im gonna throw up. i wanna go to the store and get food but my dad doesn't really care and my mom is out of town at work. theres a boar...Fri, 08 Aug 2025 00:34:00 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1294142https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1294142Rats and Roaches I hear them crawling in the walls, Scurrying on the floors in the halls, It doesn't matter what I say, They'll never leave, they won't go away. I see them now, every day, With eyes of black and fur of gray, I watch them scuttle across the floor, There's nothing I can do anymore. I can feel them creeping into my bed, Scratching at my feel and biting my head, I try my best to shoo t...Mon, 28 Oct 2024 14:41:31 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285192https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285192Brain Dead Explosion If I were to list the things I hate We'd be here all day, I find you utterly repulsive, In each and every way. Your words are nothing but meaningless drivel, Everything you say killing my mind, Though I suppose if I lacked what you do, I'd do so in kind. There's a special kind of hatred I feel for you, One that can only be described as dread, Whenever your presence is known to...Tue, 15 Oct 2024 16:10:59 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285167https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285167The One to Blame The truth is murky and far off, And no one feels the shame, But I know the truth, though you may scoff, I know who is to blame. The world is full of liars, They get away with it through fame, But you can trust me, this is dire, I know who is to blame. These people are pure failures, Can't even say their names, But I know what I'm doing, I know who is to blame. The cruel injustice ...Tue, 15 Oct 2024 15:22:25 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285164https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285164Weeping Lily There is a flower in the deep of the woods By the name of Weeping Lily, she sits in her pond, grounded by vines, And all the creatures loved her dearly. A fox wandered into the forest one day, Leaping over branches and weaving through the trees, He stopped at the pond for a crisp drink, Where he heard the lily weep. Up from the water he drew his face, Eyes feasting upon her elegant fo...Tue, 15 Oct 2024 15:15:57 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1269347https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1269347It Always Spreads The burns are spreading over every part of my body, Consuming my flesh as I writhe in agony, I can feel it kickstart the process of rotting, Turning my blood into honey. There is no fire, only the burns, Cutting my life short as I am helpless, It is heating up my tissue as it churns, Trimming away whatever it deems excess. It's worse now, the burns have grown on you, They are lap...Wed, 25 Sep 2024 19:52:09 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1268162https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1268162Boredom To be bored is to know torture, Gnawing at my own skin for kicks, The need to feel something oppressive and forceful, And the growing fear of accepting it. It is unlike sadness in the sense that it creeps, It doesn't jump out, or spring upon you, It slowly crawls inside of you, into your bones it seeps, Then it flows from your pores, filling your tomb. It isn't like anger as it's appearanc...Tue, 24 Sep 2024 16:31:02 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1267148https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1267148Sins of The Flesh To be human is to be dirty, A simple fact of life, The dirt is unavoidable, And it clings to your skin. But I don't want to be human,  I gasp, If this body is a gift I relinquish it, A god given gift it may be I do not accept it. I will find something better, I decree, Something that will not rust, nor wilt, nor decay, Something clean and pristine that I can wear And not feel dis...Mon, 23 Sep 2024 18:00:43 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1262470https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1262470i hate school so much. itz a really cliche thing to say, but there iz no other way to describe it. i absolutely h8 it. everyone sukz, therez no time for anything else, i cant even breathe right now and im still in clasz. im choking on my own throat rn and all i can think abt is how i have late work i need to do. in short, everything sucks and i am going to vomit >:PTue, 17 Sep 2024 16:24:54 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1260664https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1260664so, i don't know if this even counts as 'taking care of yourself', but why is it so hard to keep up with friends and your own needs? like, i'll take a break from social media, but then i feel like i'm neglecting the people i talk to. but then when i spend too much time online i forget that i have a body that needs to be taken care of. i want so badly to talk to/hang out with people, but it just fe...Sun, 15 Sep 2024 01:45:32 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1240957https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1240957so, like, what do you do when some1 breaks up with u, but itz like totally no1s fault? i feel like im not allowed to be mad, but at the same time it came out of nowhere! bsides, we were friendz b4 we were dating, so do i just stop talking to her? i don't even kno anymore, everything suckz again. n e way, i feel like im gonna vomit again so wtv. thats it igMon, 19 Aug 2024 00:48:01 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1239202https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1239202i forgot i totally never did one of these, so here it is now ig a big fat NO to: racists (especially zionists, ky$!  ( ๑>ᴗFri, 16 Aug 2024 06:54:49 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1218756https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1218756No True Future I have hope for a future Where the sky can be seen, Dirt clears from the air, But I know it just won't come. I have hope for a future Where rain falls from the clouds, Water seeps into the soil, But it's never gonna happen. I have hope for a future Where we are able to walk free, When the children can laugh and play, If only they could. I have hope for a future Where life and freedo...Thu, 18 Jul 2024 05:08:59 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1218353https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1218353Inside I like inside because it's comfortable, I like inside because it's warm, I like inside because it's not scary, I like inside because it's safe. I like inside because it makes me happy, I like inside because it keeps me safe, I like inside because no one can touch me, I like inside because I am free. I like inside because they leave me alone, I like inside because they are outside, I like in...Wed, 17 Jul 2024 17:15:52 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1218093https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1218093All The World's A Stage All the world's a stage, Quoted from Shakespeare the truth, The world is on a set path, Choices not defined. Green strings wrap a dancer's neck, Bells jingle from her hands and feet, Merely a puppet to the cycle of life, 'Till the end of days. Up and down go the limbs, Fate in the largest hands, The narrative on a linear decline, A rather awful film, I believe. Tap shoes mu...Wed, 17 Jul 2024 07:59:54 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1217564https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1217564not a full day on here and i have already come to a conclusion. everyone making layoutz on here izz.. A WIZARD! i could not do it. all of the profilez are so cool o.o it haz to be witchcraft, i swear.Tue, 16 Jul 2024 17:34:25 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1217552https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1217552greetingz new world! am v new but i hope i can make some good friendz !! might put some poetry on here laterz. k bai!Tue, 16 Jul 2024 17:07:15 +0000