https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=2749560The most recent Blog Entries by the User "Boy Anne" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2127215https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2127215What's worse is that I used to yearn for that, search for that and destroy my mental and physical health just for a portion of that attention I desired. I wanted friendship and understanding, but now I don't know what I want. I didn't want to be alone for the longest time, but now I realize these are animals that I'm trying to relate to and feel ashamed for even wanting a connection with them. I'm...Sun, 22 Mar 2026 01:58:52 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2127085https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2127085Every day I grow more and more distant from people. Any friendship I have or had I've tarnished by repeatedly ghosting people and disappearing. I don't know what to think of it, I don't know if I should feel bad about it. I feel like a normal person would feel bad about losing contact with somebody you come to know well, but I can't help be indifferent about it. Most I've wanted company for is to ...Sat, 21 Mar 2026 22:53:39 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2123686https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2123686Kitty cat now has a liking of sleeping in my room with me, hes also refound his favorite spot (by the window, inside the curtains). he makes me so happy, my savior, my knight in shining armor oughh.Tue, 17 Mar 2026 19:52:12 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2119359https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2119359There's this dude at my school who looks exactly like him. It's super uncanny it freaks me out, and he keeps looking at me like another classmate does I don't know what's happening, do I look that strange?? What fucks me up is that we might actually be related and just don't know Anyhow I'm tired, I slept for 3 hours and my brain isn't working right. I also forgot to take my meds this morning. I d...Fri, 13 Mar 2026 15:03:44 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1886600https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1886600He left my house about two months ago I think. /* customization */ :root { --background-color: lightyellow; --background-image: url(https://i.pinimg.com/originals/49/d0/03/49d003f6b44bd526400788ab3686ba04.gif); --banner-image: url(https://i.pinimg.com/originals/fb/2b/96/fb2b967ed26b53dd3853889ceecb03cd.gif); --accent: #E67E29; } /* code itself */ .container, nav { width: 100%; }Fri, 22 Aug 2025 14:05:50 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1592604https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1592604I never wanted this to happen. I never wanted that to happen. So why is it still happening to me. I've gotten used to so much. His touches, his demeaning comments, his demands, the stains. But the fact that people might know now is pushing me closer to the edge, I feel like I'm losing my mind. I haven't been taking my medications, I thought I was numb enough to handle it. Why do I joke with him li...Sat, 10 May 2025 03:57:13 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1592524https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1592524If i die, its his fault.Sat, 10 May 2025 03:10:08 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1407920https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1407920Fri, 07 Feb 2025 18:55:53 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1342827https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1342827I've begun to not know what to do with myself, I don't think this life is worth it. I've stopped taking my pills ever since they were changed, they weren't doing anything.Sat, 28 Dec 2024 21:17:49 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1332022https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1332022I don't know how to greet people. I know how to greet girls but how do you interact with boys? It's confusing. I rather not greet them at all even if I'm a boy myself, I don't associate with those monsters.Sun, 15 Dec 2024 01:35:56 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1329879https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1329879He keeps entering my room in the middle of the night, at least he listens when I say I want to sleep. I wonder if one day he'll get tired.Thu, 12 Dec 2024 11:36:27 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1329878https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1329878He keeps telling me I smell good.Thu, 12 Dec 2024 11:31:07 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1329331https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=13293314th 2024 16-18 Friday April 5th 2024, 16-19? Tuesday, may 14th 16-19 Monday, may 13th 16-19 Sat, Oct 26 2024 17-19 And everyday foward.Wed, 11 Dec 2024 16:51:14 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1329328https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1329328I'm no longer pure, no man or woman will want me like this. I was never pure to begin with. It aches.Wed, 11 Dec 2024 16:46:34 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1329327https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1329327I got my Christmas gift early like always, some Spider-Man PJs!! I like them.Wed, 11 Dec 2024 16:45:26 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1329326https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1329326Pills aren't working so I think I'm going to continue with my plan. I have to download the manual first, gotta know how to drive. I'll probably search for some desolated places or rivers. I should go fishing now that I think about it, I just don't know where or who is going to take me now that dad's dead. I wonder if I'll meet fun people, last person said they couldn't be friends with me after thr...Wed, 11 Dec 2024 16:43:54 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1295203https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1295203He told me I smell taste like caramel to make up for it I'm going to kill him He keeps touching me, I'm going to kill himWed, 30 Oct 2024 01:48:34 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1292886https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1292886So Daddy's dead, he's been dead for i don't know how long. I found out because I asked my mama about it, she made a joke but then I asked if he was dead to which she nodded. I didn't really get to say goodbye but I like thinking he forgot about me long ago. I feel a little sad but no more than that, I loved my dad but he wasn't a good person. Also his family took his remains from whatSat, 26 Oct 2024 15:25:50 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285323https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1285323I've met this girl, she's pretty cute. When we first met I told her she was exactly that, cute. It was funny to see her reaction. We got in contact again after a small while, it was nice but now I found her a bit strange but that was only at first. She's weird but so is everybody I've ever met, everyone is weird to me. I love her eyes, that puppy stare is so intoxicating, i want her to kill me wit...Tue, 15 Oct 2024 20:09:33 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1275922https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1275922Yesterday, Wednesday Oct 3rd I came back from the mental hospital, I was out of the house since past Monday and I'm the hospital since past Tuesday. It was boring, annoying, and repetitive. Happy I'm home ?Thu, 03 Oct 2024 15:58:44 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1261345https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1261345I sometimes wish me and him would have crashed that night.Mon, 16 Sep 2024 00:58:04 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1259676https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1259676I am deeply aware of my worth. No matter what favors I do or how much I try I always know that I won't be rewarded or thanked because that's just who I am. So now I live accordingly to my worth, nothing that I say matters, nothing that I do matters and all my trying is utterly futile for I am nothing and this world doesn't want me in it. I don't try anymore.Fri, 13 Sep 2024 15:03:18 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1254516https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1254516I've been having some pretty nasty thoughts for years and only recently got a break from them because of an hospital admission and pills but I think the pills aren't working anymore. I think it might be my fault that they're not working, Everytime I try to talk about what I've been thinking I just can't get a word out. I'm scared of being a further burden if I speak up again, I shouldn't be compla...Thu, 05 Sep 2024 17:46:05 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1253644https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1253644I've been thinking about my birthday, it was great honestly. No parties, no pity, i was peaceful. Definitely less sad than any other one, I rather be alone than ignored.Wed, 04 Sep 2024 14:44:22 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1253640https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1253640I invited a couple of people to play a game together, everybody else is playing and I got left out for being too late. Fun times, I'll probably take a nap since I'm free for at least 3 more hours.Wed, 04 Sep 2024 14:39:36 +0000