https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=2768275The most recent Blog Entries by the User "NANA" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1934545https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1934545Eu só queria ter uma mente que não estivesse o tempo todo tentando me sabotar, me colocar pra baixo, criando coisas que não existem, eu não aguento mais viver nessa luta contra mim mesma. Você sabe como é ter que depender da visão da nicole sobre uma situação porque não posso confiar na minha própria percepção? É tão cansativo e difícil viver assim. Eu me conforto pensando que é por causa da adole...Fri, 03 Oct 2025 02:32:23 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1885821https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1885821I am such a sad and lacking person that I feel this will kill me one day. I wrote about this lack once. I went to the birthday party I had to go to. It wasn't good, obviously, because I get bored in those places, but I met his boyfriend, so it was worth it, it was the reason I went. Sometimes I get a little upset knowing that I will never/not anytime soon be able to experience a love like that, fo...Thu, 21 Aug 2025 20:43:24 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1873989https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1873989Cresci com pessoas que romantizavam a falta, entendi que a falta nos tornava mais fortes e sábios. Como meus pais costumavam falar tão honoravelmente desta falta, que ela criava caráter e afins, comecei a aderir a ela. A falta de comida, falta de amor, falta de pessoas, com o passar do tempo vivi as mais variadas faltas e me apeguei a cada uma delas. Porém, ao contrário do que todos diziam, não me...Mon, 11 Aug 2025 08:26:28 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1861212https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1861212I wanted a diagnosis. Instead of just trying to treat it, I also wanted to understand why I am the way I am. My father says it's to get his attention, my mother says it's a vitamin deficiency, others say it's because of my family; I just wanted a reason, an explanation for why I'm like this. My family has no history of mental health problems; it's a completely clean record. No one even has a histo...Mon, 04 Aug 2025 18:01:41 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1838172https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1838172I can no longer feel pleasure for leaving my house, even though I know I'll be better off outside than inside. I also loved to read, but I can't even open a book anymore. Before, I just stayed home and slept to forget I was home, but nowadays at least I can watch TV and play games, besides sleeping. But I constantly feel sad, I feel like life has nothing for me anymore. I only felt genuine happine...Tue, 29 Jul 2025 08:13:38 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1762929https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1762929"The reason you can't believe he loves you, is because YOU don't love yourself" So one girl just said that to me while I was drunk and got me thinking for like a weekMon, 07 Jul 2025 01:25:02 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1756416https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1756416I feel like there's something missing in me, something that other people have that I don't. This thing makes me feel empty and also different, like I'm from another species, or like everyone else is a cookie, but I'm missing one ingredient in the recipe.  And I feel like I'll never be happy until I fill this something that I'm missing, but how can I fill it if I don't know what it is? I wonder if ...Sat, 05 Jul 2025 00:25:39 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1753305https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1753305I go to her gym, I go to her church, I take care of her house, I get the grades she wants, and in the middle of all this she finds time to complain about how sad I am even though she does everything she can to help me and how I am not cooperating with her help. I can do all of this without saying a word, but she cannot expect to have both. Either I do everything she wants or I am happy, because on...Fri, 04 Jul 2025 01:31:57 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1732299https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1732299I remember when I was a kid and I was sleeping at my grandma's house, I received the news that my childhood dog had died.  My reaction was definitely not what the adults expected. I didn't cry or nothing, It was like nothing had happened, until I saw my mama in the other day. When I looked at her, I started crying about the dog, like she had unearthed the feelings in me, exposing a fragility and s...Fri, 27 Jun 2025 03:47:47 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1723047https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1723047I think that the worst part of being in a relashionship, platonic or not, is having to pretend that everything is ok and nothing bothers you, because if bothers it becomes a problem and the person doesnt want to be with you anymore. I feel like I am always erasing myself to be loveable because knowing me more leads to loving me lessTue, 24 Jun 2025 04:40:44 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1723020https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1723020SHE NEEDS HIM AND HE IS THERE FOR HER BUT NOT FOR ME  I HATE THEM ALL BUT I NEED THEM I HATE THIS SHIT I REAALY NEED TO DIE I FEEL SO FUCKING NEGLIGIBLE I HATE IT I HATETue, 24 Jun 2025 04:23:01 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1722993https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1722993 I am going through one of the worst moments of my life and mental health. I really need support right now, but I have to continue pretending that everything is ok so people dont worry about me and I become a problem to them. I dont have a mother nor father figure. All the love, affection and care I need to live, I have found in two other people who I dont share any blood with, and It makes asking...Tue, 24 Jun 2025 04:16:05 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1716396https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1716396My friends had a good day without me so now im being immature and ignoring them because I wanted to be happy too, but unfortunately I am stuck in my mind Sun, 22 Jun 2025 04:00:08 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1715847https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1715847I cant take It anymore. Please I beg you, end my suffering somehow. I cant do this anymore, too much suffering i hate this nighmare please take me out of hereSat, 21 Jun 2025 23:38:54 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1714896https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1714896"I want to know what is like, to not be alone. I want to feel wanted. The point is, is just want someone to care, if I stay or go. I want someone to want ME. To want to see me, to hold me, to look at me and think 'youre the only one I want. I desire to hold you and talk to you and never let tou feel so...'Sat, 21 Jun 2025 16:43:35 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1714251https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1714251I have been sleeping hugging his hoodie. Pathetic, I know. But that makes me feel peace and sleep better, for some reason. Being honest, I do know the reason. His smell is on the hoodie, brings me peace and confort, like I am at home and everything will be ok.Sat, 21 Jun 2025 08:29:08 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1714239https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1714239I was going to say that this year is a total shit, but then I remembered that I have depression and every year is a huge shit. Even though I continue to do therapy, take medication and all that stuff, even though I may get better on the outside, I feel like I'm only getting worse on the inside. It's a ladder that I'm going down every year until it ends and I die. I think I will use this blog to wr...Sat, 21 Jun 2025 08:25:32 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1714221https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1714221I cant take It anymore. Living is too hard and there is so much suffering, i cant take It anymore. I feel like i am living in a cold and torturing nighmare. Everyday gets worse. I look to the sky but its empty, no one is coming to rescue me. I dont have a lap to cry, I dont have anything. When I find someting that can distract me from the nighmare, I grab it with everything I have so I can forgetSat, 21 Jun 2025 08:16:46 +0000