https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=2811640The most recent Blog Entries by the User "Frivolity" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2154959https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2154959It's been two weeks since Baby, my cat of 17 years, passed. Today I napped for a few hours and when I awoke on my back, I swore I saw her walk into my room. "Ah, Baby is in here" I thought. But it lasted only a moment and ended when I turned my head to discover it was one of my other cats. Of course, after coming to, I realized there was really no way of that being possible. But for a moment, I wa...Thu, 30 Apr 2026 01:34:51 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2149937https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2149937I've lost my best friend.  One week ago today my cat, Baby, got terribly ill. She had been struggling for a while with kitty dementia and bladder issues and the bladder issues got so terrible I had to to nurse her in my bathroom. She became too frail to walk. I took care of her the best I possibly could, but it wasn't enough. Her body started shutting down on her and I had to make the worst decisi...Tue, 21 Apr 2026 17:50:47 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2085669https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2085669How does anyone deal with being by themselves all day long? Like all day every day? On a good day I can talk to my BF for a few minutes and on a great day, I see him for a couple hours. I don't have any friends to talk to. How does one do it? I try to distract myself from it by watching old YT vids of friend groups playing games together or watching slice of life anime with all girl friend groups,...Wed, 11 Feb 2026 04:15:13 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2071829https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2071829Everything is terrible. I cannot survive a January without tragedy. It is a myth to me.  The world keeps on ending.  But my boyfriend is coming over tonight and we will get high on weed and each other and the sun looks pretty on my bed where we'll sleep and in the morning I will reminisce over breakfast. The books in my shelf and the art on my tablet are free of AI so everything is okay for now.  ...Thu, 29 Jan 2026 20:55:47 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2059595https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2059595I am so ANGRY . I would even describe my current mood as LIVID. My biggest peeve/ick/mood killer/least favorite/annoyance is when I'm talking to some other chick about my boyfriend (because I cannot shut up about him for more than two minutes) and they say shit like "well if he's still in the picture" or "if he doesn't cheat on you." That makes me so indescribably pissed. Like insert the negative ...Mon, 19 Jan 2026 16:35:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2057176https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2057176I finally got some more weed!! And I've got social obligations tomorrow so I'm going to enjoy myself tonight. I took like 5mg yesterday and got lazy high and smashed an entire Maruchan soup so that was cool.  Boyfriend finally got one of his dream fish (or I guess I should say "aquatic critter") yesterday morning and he took me with him all the way past Beaumont to get it. He was so excited it was...Sat, 17 Jan 2026 17:01:53 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2047862https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2047862It's really, really windy today. I was just thinking about how some of the nicest people I've met are people that work at dispensaries and sex hotel desks or are homeless. Like obviously not everyone that works at these places or are these are gonna be friendly, there are always going to be cruel people out in the world so don't go looking for em. These types of exchanges sort of have a way of fin...Fri, 09 Jan 2026 20:20:32 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2043385https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2043385This entry will begin with a very common thought in my head: "I'm bored so I will write." Today I just ran some errands with my mom and napped, but it was still a good day. Unemployment has been really surreal so far honestly. It feels weird, like I have all this money saved up now that's going right back out, but it doesn't feel like I worked for it. Like yes, I did work for the last eight months...Tue, 06 Jan 2026 05:19:34 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2037840https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2037840Happy big 26!!  So a lot has changed since the last time I wrote. My newest cat became a mother of six and me and Boyfriend could not be happier in the position of grandparents. They were born in early October! I had my last day of work yesterday. I had been planning on working until the end of January, but I caught a cold, missed a few days, and they threw me out because I didn't have a doctors n...Fri, 02 Jan 2026 04:29:03 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1919763https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1919763I'm so tireddddd!! Work has been the actual worse . I'm so relieved I get weekends off. It's like a little island in the middle of a vast, furious pitch black sea. It helps that weekend time usually means me and Boyfriend get to spend some time in person. I'm thinking of quitting because I just can't seem to do anything right even though it's been months. I need to find something that pays more to...Sat, 20 Sep 2025 19:20:46 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1907177https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1907177I've been doing little but working and being around my boyfriend. That little cat I found, Maisy, had kittens little less than a month ago. There are six: five girls and one boy. Their names are Hatsune Miku, Maggie, Rei, Jiji, Miso, and Lil' Jude (the boy). They are going to be 4 weeks old on Wednesday and I couldn't be happier with them. I'm so grateful I was able to give Maisy home and a safe s...Tue, 09 Sep 2025 02:10:31 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1818567https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1818567I'm so sleepy. Work has been so drab, but at least I'm making money. I need to work on my personal projects I really need to feel some sense of progression. I have made so many friends since graduating. People say it gets better when you graduate high school, but it really gets better after university. Pity I rarely have free time to spend with my new friends though. I wish I'd known them when I w...Wed, 23 Jul 2025 23:23:55 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1766601https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1766601I want to write so much, but it's so late, so I'll update here for right now.  It's going to get bad. Really bad. That fuckass stupid worthless miserable bill passed and it's just going to get so much worse. I don't think I see it getting better. My parents talked about it over the weekend and decided that we tough it out for 1 last year here just so my little sister can graduate and I can save up...Tue, 08 Jul 2025 04:04:24 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1740654https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1740654Lots of things have changed and lots have stayed the same. My and Boyfriend are as well as ever, truly moreso now than we've ever been I feel. We've had another child (I adopted a new cat) and things are going well at work.  This weekend, I've done loads and it's still Sunday evening and though the day's practically over, I might just finish the art piece I'm working on. I should upload my art on ...Mon, 30 Jun 2025 01:59:50 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1632750https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1632750I've bee so busy with work. For the past two week's it's just been nonstop working eight hour shifts. This week I took on an overtime day because I'm going to be moving rooms again (back to the small one) so I can avoid paying rent. It's a better deal anyway, I don't have to deal with my mother's elderly dogs throwing up all over my things.  Me and Boyfriend had the most lovely weekend. We went to...Tue, 27 May 2025 14:36:12 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1606762https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1606762HE WANTS TO MARRY ME!!!!! HE WANTS TO MARRY ME!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO MARRY HIM AND HE WANTS TO MARRY ME SOMEDAY!!!!!!!! WE JUST NEED MONEY FOR NOW.  It was sort of an accident that I asked him that, but last night we talked about the future and what to do and how to make money in Mexico. I told him my latest idea: to write a small, poetry chapbook, and he loved it. So, at the moment, the plan is to ...Fri, 16 May 2025 14:22:02 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1605005https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1605005I want to start my career already. However, my only options are to do remote work or to move somewhere like San Francisco, which I'm okay with. Me and Boyfriend spoke once about moving to San Fran and living cheap in a little boat off the docks. People rent them out for less than $200/month and living somewhere like that while I go to work would be lovely. But I want to live with him more than any...Thu, 15 May 2025 15:55:51 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1601618https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1601618Everything in my life has just 180-ed. I made a new friend. I got a job starting tomorrow. My boyfriend loves me. What. This is how I feel right now.  Me and her have been playing Animal Crossing and we have plans to go to the library this evening. I have no words to summarize my excitement. I feel like Tomoko or BocchTue, 13 May 2025 23:15:39 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1597254https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1597254I don't like getting carried away in fantastical daydreams anymore. I can't. Whenever I sit and imagine a future in which me and Boyfriend marry, I begin to cry because I'm not the type of woman he would pursue that sort of thing with. Besides, if I voiced my dream of being his wife ten years down the line and wanting a family with him, it would only frighten him, or worse, cause him to laugh at m...Mon, 12 May 2025 05:46:33 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1591676https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1591676I woke up today at 5 A.M. missing someone who hasn't been in my life for about two years. It's weird because I don't usually think about her anymore, but I couldn't help but remember her and cry a little. I think it's because Instagram keeps showing me ads for this ramen spot we went to one of the last times we ever spoke to each other. It also has her name on it, so the association would be there...Fri, 09 May 2025 18:41:30 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1576186https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1576186I always feel depressed until Boyfriend comes around. Then I laugh like an idiot and forget why I was ever sad. I wish I had emotional permanence, but I'm not really sure how or if I can develop it so late into my life.  We went to L.A. yesterday to go to Green Day's Hollywood Star ceremony. It was super fucking awesome. Ryan Renolds was there too, for some reason I actually don't know why he was ...Fri, 02 May 2025 23:19:00 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1555790https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1555790I want to go home. .profile-pic:before { content: url(""); z-index: 2; position: absolute; transform: scale(0.2); transform-origin: 15% -15%; } .profile-pic img { border: 8px solid white; border-block-end: 30px solid white; scale: 1.1; transform: rotate(-4deg); transform-origWed, 23 Apr 2025 03:51:11 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1553145https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1553145I hate that I remember. I hate that I remember all the things in life that make me feel alone. That's my problem. I remember the words that led me to starvation, to the edge of a knife. I want to be praised. I want him to say to me "You're my beautiful girl. You're a good girl." He shows it, always, but I need it to be said in his voice, in the way only he can say it. I dream of me and Boyfriend l...Tue, 22 Apr 2025 02:08:25 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1539118https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1539118I'm seeing the Hatsune Miku movie on Saturday which I'm pretty excited about. I've been a fan since 2008 and vocaloid was really the first genre of music I truly got into. I never went too deep into the rabbit hole at the time, but by the time I reached high school and I got back into anime, I just dove straight in. I've loved it for years.  @import url('https://fonts.googleapis.com/css2?family=Li...Wed, 16 Apr 2025 17:21:06 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1534908https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1534908I'm so sleepy. I want to recover from the weekend today, but I've got a job interview today. It's via zoom so it won't be too bad and at least I've got one, so I can't truly complain too much. Ever since I got back to California, I've felt tremendously depressed. I cry most nights unless I see Boyfriend. But it's exactly like it was before I left, it just feels worse because I stopped getting used...Mon, 14 Apr 2025 15:39:01 +0000