https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=2839586The most recent Blog Entries by the User "smearedredlipstick" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1823562https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1823562Warm and Tender Skin pressed onto mine You are soft, delicate  And a gentle remind That freedom is youth Like the young steady nights That we as young people, we may take for granted But beyond desire  And beyond the moment This is what we long to be Young and freeFri, 25 Jul 2025 06:19:03 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1773288https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1773288I’m held in arms that love me I feel warm and I am happy I remember once you told me Well, more flaunted that it felt good to be in someone’s arms Does it feel good now? To be so alone? I heard you are happy in your solitude  It’s funny to me Your loneliness is a joke One that will stay with you forever And one I will forever laugh at As loving armsThu, 10 Jul 2025 03:36:52 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1588248https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1588248Oh my love, I call your name  Feel your touch All the same Oh my love,  Hold me Just so I can crawl back out again Oh my love  Oh my love, Sung to her Sing to me Oh my love Oh my love, Kiss we share In the night The weary eyes You show me Oh my love, We are new In rhe night I love youThu, 08 May 2025 02:13:21 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1506415https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1506415I’m your darling And it’s strange coming from you  Strange, to hear you whisper it in my ear  You say it like it’s the first time But I’ve heard these words before Yet I can’t remember the last time I’ve heard them Neither the way it slipped from his mouth, That voice  It’s become nothing but a slight memory I’m your darling And it feels like I’ve never heard these words before Like IMon, 31 Mar 2025 03:53:47 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1490327https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1490327Again We’ll never be this young and free Put down the bottle, enter peace Hare Krishna, Hare Krishna To the mantra  Close your eyes and recite he Praise him for the life to be Krishna Krishna, Hare Hare Love Practiced in celibacy  Not virginity, so enter me Hare Rama, Hare Rama To the mantra Before repeat Rama Rama, Hare HareFri, 21 Mar 2025 20:36:45 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1428053https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1428053“I’m not a whore, I’m not a whore” I begged and I cried I have my whole life Until my teenage copulation  I thought I knew pleasure I thought I knew pain Naked in my mirror, want it to go away Until my teenage copulation  He says to me “Quit fucking resisting, Don’t you want to be good? Stay in your fucking place  And take it.” I wish I could say I neverMon, 17 Feb 2025 05:50:15 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1388754https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1388754How I regret it Denying my love for you Since the start How stupid of me To have ever wanted another  You are my first taste of love You are my true I have always, always loved you I tried to fill a hole in my heart I took the pills to remember  I wanted to dream of a familiar face But, I remember  You came to me once, In that dream And we held and kissedFri, 31 Jan 2025 04:20:19 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1352763https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1352763I’m sure I love you  And I really hate to say that  I said it’d never be true  To even like you  But the way you hold me close There’s no place I’d rather be “You’ve really got a hold on me” Is the song that plays when you’re around It makes me feel good, You make me feel good Like I never thought you would They say it’s not worth the chase And even at nights,Wed, 08 Jan 2025 05:06:27 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1351541https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1351541Heart rapists.  Those are what I call men who love you without any warning. And by that alone it doesn’t sound so bad, I mean, isn’t that what love is anyway? To come into your life without asking? Well, it really wasn’t so bad, but that’s what heart rapists do. They make it feel good.  The first thing heart rapists do is lure you, but they don’t do it on purpose. Heart rapists have eyes that capt...Tue, 07 Jan 2025 04:20:44 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1348632https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1348632Sweat drops from the skin of man And hits the face of woman Woman tears echo in the air  Of hitching breath and cries They twist and turn like lovers In a scene across the Seine Yet they never look at one another  Even when inside each other  Do we ever wonder Why must we love in such a way? Sex is pleasure in a tin Sex is just another form of Friction and close movement Sat, 04 Jan 2025 06:26:17 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1345782https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1345782Sunday mornings, they have to be my favorite. I pull on my flats and brush off my skirt. It’s early, a sunny 8:00, and Ben should be here any minute. He likes to take me out to the diners around town. I really do think it’s the sweetest thing, I like boys who know how to treat a girl to a nice breakfast. It makes me happy, how in just the little time we’ve been together, Ben has already picked up ...Wed, 01 Jan 2025 07:44:22 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1344774https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1344774On nights that I long for you  Night that become all so blue Nights on that I think of you Tell me that this isn’t true Dying isn’t what I fear Neither my fate, now unclear  I imagine your warm body here Yet that alone is too severe Your voice, your lullaby  Your old, sweet goodbye  Shine leaving from your eyes Tears I wish I could dry It’s you who I love the mostTue, 31 Dec 2024 05:21:54 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1341601https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1341601Eat me And make me beautiful  Rip my hair  Pinch my skin Poke my eyes Love me like you once did Hurt me like you’ve always have  As long as you make me beautiful, then I can take it So swallow me Beat me Fuck me Eat, and eat, and eat me Then spit me out on dirty concrete  I’ll forgive you  And kiss the teeth that chewed me up I love youFri, 27 Dec 2024 05:34:49 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1336742https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1336742I want to peel back my skin and flesh I’ll curl up in a ball and cut through I want to feel naked and alone I’ll let my nerves cry as I do I want to be open and raw I’ll become new New and tender I want to be that Weak and feeble I’d like to be that  Virgin and innocent  I long to be that  It hurt’s when I’m done But I do not bleed The idiot, the fool And the oSat, 21 Dec 2024 04:11:14 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1321351https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1321351Dear God,  You were right! When I read you’re letter, I really thought it could not be true That maybe, I had the slightest chance of living, a life of happiness, and purity, but you were right! And although I cried at your berating words, and cried to my secrets,  None of that will matter anymore Because now, I know what I am good for John said it himself- and I’m so happy I’m so happy he thinksSun, 01 Dec 2024 21:30:28 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1320270https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1320270Sat, 30 Nov 2024 18:32:28 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1315245https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1315245Mary opened her eyes to two strange things. Two strange, familiar things One, an apron, and two, a warm-light kitchen. Both strange, for she had not put an apron in years, since Ben only bought the couple fast-food leftovers for dinner, and for the fact that this very kitchen was one she had not seen in the longest time. This kitchen was home, the home with John.  Though Mary was surprised, her fo...Mon, 25 Nov 2024 06:16:07 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1313592https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1313592You are a lover that I cannot love. You are a lover that I do not want to love. Which, that statement itself confuses even myself. To a point, and to an outside perspective, there is no doubt that I do have love for you. But to me, the love I hold for you is only one to ease the aching I have in my heart, not to truly want you, and have you, but to share the one thing I live for, the one thing I c...Sat, 23 Nov 2024 02:57:16 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1312959https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1312959“It’s late, are you sure I should still be here?” Steven let me stay at his before my parents got home. My parents worked late. He was friendly, and he was trusting, so I never questioned staying here without really a given permission. It was like staying at a good friends house. Steven was 28 years old, and I may have been 11, but he was still my friend. He was nice to me. Not a lot of people are...Fri, 22 Nov 2024 04:29:26 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1312191https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1312191I do the same three things every night when I get home. Sink, strip, and shed.  I sink into my sadness. It’s not really something that goes away anyway, follows me dawn till dusk. Just gets much worse when I’m alone. Being alone makes me sad, really sad. All I can do is wallow in a stupid stance the moment I open my door, gazing on the room I barely clean around. It’s like the floor is one big gia...Thu, 21 Nov 2024 04:55:00 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1310543https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1310543I’ll count the days on my calendar for pleasure every day, on this day, leading up to the number I am the calendar, I am the memory Rows and rows across my sleeve Minutes are what I bleed The aftermath on the floor The days I spent waiting Punctured on my skin, grey memoirs grey into red that fades as time ahead  Still resemble my growing patience  My sin was overdue  My sin, the highest crime ITue, 19 Nov 2024 04:40:29 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1307341https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1307341Mary, you really have nothing to live for  I know what you do when you’re alone You’re always alone  Nobody else knows, but I do I know that Mary can buy ecstasy for just five dollars I know she can get lsd for just three And I definitely know she wants the seroquel She can get that only for ten And I know damn well she needs it You’re nothing but shit now Mary You sit on your ass You eat once a d...Fri, 15 Nov 2024 01:51:33 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1306654https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1306654Getting high would be a lot more comforting if you were hereThu, 14 Nov 2024 04:58:59 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1306612https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1306612I look into your eyes and see nothing but pupils. In his I saw life, love and desire. When your skin touches mine, I don’t feel any warmth, and if anything, I just your feel sweat. I thought it was supposed to feel good, being in someone’s arms, but when i’m in yours I just want to push you away. I don’t know why I let you, it’s not like I like it, and it’s not like I like you, but being alone is ...Thu, 14 Nov 2024 03:46:55 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1304707https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1304707You feel cruel, Ben I just want to drink, I just want to feel I don’t want your hands on me I don’t want to do what you want to do I don’t want anything with you  You have no warmth, Ben I just want to sleep, I just want to dream I don’t want your body on mine I don’t want your touch  Won’t you just beat it? You make me sick, Ben I just want to feel pretty, I just want fake loveTue, 12 Nov 2024 02:23:27 +0000