https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=2883111The most recent Blog Entries by the User "pozire" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1494701https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1494701Graduation is a month away, I haven't even applied for a college properly yet. It's like I'm setting myself up to fail for some reason. Why can't I find the motivation? Why can't I discipline myself to pursue my studies and responsibilities better? I'm disappointed in myself, honestly. I can't talk properly, I'm socially awkward, I keep overthinking. Am I even going to survive college? I'm scared....Mon, 24 Mar 2025 09:02:35 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1476233https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1476233I don't get it. Is it because I'm socially awkward? Is it because I'm a geek when it comes to music? Why do people dislike me? I've only stayed for almost two years in my school, doing my best to blend in with the crowd and yet people still find something to make fun of me. Making fun of everything that I love doing. It hurts, really hurts. I just want people to like me, why is it so hard for peop...Thu, 13 Mar 2025 12:30:27 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1300348https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1300348I really don't like making sudden eye contacts with people especially when I'm in a not-so-good mood because this one time I spilled my coffee on my sweater and I was pissed for the whole day, I was walking on my way to my classroom then I made eye-contact with this guy while I was being mad about my stained sweater and all that. He then gave me a mean look too because he must've thought that I di...Wed, 06 Nov 2024 22:25:59 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1299274https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1299274This girl that I mentioned in my last blog dwelled into my mind while I was asleep last night. It felt weird having her in my dreams but it also felt nice because it kind of gave me the hope that some day she would talk to me again.  It was almost evening in that dream, about 4-5 PM, I could vividly remember the sun striking its glimmering shine on the window and I was sitting next to her (which i...Tue, 05 Nov 2024 11:13:54 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1298629https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1298629About several months ago or so, there was this activity we had to do for an event which was to socialize with people in school so that we'd be able to make friends with the newcomers or something. Kind of like a speed-date except it's just getting to know other people. I wasn't really up to the task to talk to them but I mustered up the courage to at least try to socialize and make friends with th...Mon, 04 Nov 2024 13:18:33 +0000