https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=3161363The most recent Blog Entries by the User "LAZARUS" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1904931https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=19049317:35PM - Saturday, Sept 6th 2025] Oh yeah my stomach hurts. Anyways it felt right to come back to this blog again. Wow, my last update was June? Crazy. I think writing is a good exercise to stay coherent, and this talent could disappear any day-- best to make the most of it. Give myself something to look back on. I've learned the hard lesson that, if I do not take my antidepressants, it ruins mSun, 07 Sep 2025 02:39:20 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1742436https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=174243610:23AM - Monday, June 30th 2025] I had a song stuck in my head after a mental debate on the question, "will I achieve all that I desire as my end goal?" Though I will not express them publically ('until done, tell none'), they would be best described as mighty to accomplish.  The song stuck in my head was Andromeda by Weyes Blood. FroMon, 30 Jun 2025 17:16:53 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1737375https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=17373752:13PM - Saturday, June 28th 2025] I have returned from an adventure in Europe. But I found that my mind was restless, and that it has taken a large sum of media restriction to calm the voices in my head of old songs, quotes, memories, and questions. Sat, 28 Jun 2025 21:14:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1564550https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=15645501:11PM - Sunday, April 27th 2025] I've seen a glimpse into the world and it's beauty, beyond anything I could ever dream of. I am happy to be alive and to admire the creations of others, old and new. And from this experience traveling across Amsterdam, Brussels, and Lyon, I am excited to create, too. I see a vision of what I want to make inspiredSun, 27 Apr 2025 11:07:00 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1556114https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=155611410:57AM - Wednesday, April 23rd 2025] Typing out my daily exploits and emotions is a bit easier than writing it down, and I really should document the amazing point in my life that I am at now. In the last 24 hours, my life has changed for the better. I am exactly where I want to be. And I'm excited to bookmark this moment in history.  Yesterday, 4/22, I went home because I had no food and I waWed, 23 Apr 2025 08:53:31 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1534574https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=15345741:42PM - Monday, April 14th 2025] Hi. This is just an archive of my emotion right now because I am trying to focus but as a marker, my final act during this break is to culminate inspiration and drive by aligning with my self-assigned homestuck classpect, Rogue of Breath. Anyways, before beginning, I will write out how I'm feeling. I see myself with a toothy, sly grin, strong and serving (cunt) as...Mon, 14 Apr 2025 11:38:26 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1533534https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=15335341:00AM - Monday, April 14th 2025] I just left a call with my mom. I missed her, so I picked up the phone. It was a sad thought to think of the moment when she isn't right there to call to vent. So I went for it, and it was a much needed conversation, because beforehand I was having persist thoughts repeating the scenario of meeting my former partner to obtain my things. Enough ofSun, 13 Apr 2025 23:11:28 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1527756https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=15277565:17PM - Friday, April 11th 2025] I think it would be best to update this blog because my last post was very sad. I do not feel nearly as bad as I did back then. It's April. It passed so fast, yet it slows, when I drink coffee (sometimes).  I've done some deep thinking about my future. I'm crafting a routine for myself that has helped motivate me to stay alive, and to work on being alive, because ...Fri, 11 Apr 2025 15:13:19 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1493886https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=149388610:43PM - Sunday, Mar 23] Today was an adventure, glorious, vibrant, heartful, I went to a royal garden, my second ever concert, and a nice kebab place. Yet I came back to my perfect hostel feeling like I was not whole.Sun, 23 Mar 2025 22:54:04 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1471728https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=14717289:38PM - Monday, Mar 10] There are very kind people out there, and today I met one of the nicest phone therapy people ever. Before calling I was thinking to myself, "I really wish I could talk to God right now, or have someone to talk to", because I wanted a positive influence and motivation, as I severely lacked it prior. And it felt divine to talk to someMon, 10 Mar 2025 20:37:45 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1467873https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=14678735:08PM - Saturday, Mar 8] I love the sacred heart, it was favorite symbol the moment I found it, that or the borjgali for its funny name and beautiful origin. Nevertheless, I write this in grateful tears. I am glad to be here, I am glad to be alive. And I normally I don't get this sappy, but today was a fresh start that has reinspired my livelihood. But for context, the morning was rough. It was n...Sat, 08 Mar 2025 16:09:44 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1464942https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=146494211:40PM - Thursday, Mar 6] I come from a town that is a speck on the map. If it was wiped off the face of the Earth, no country would cry, the world would not mourn what it had lost because it truly was not that significant. And I do not love this town so much that I would ever want to make it so significant because while I love some of the people in it, this city has had over 100 years to change ...Thu, 06 Mar 2025 22:40:42 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1439100https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=14391008:59AM - Saturday, Feb 22] After my recent breakup, the first image that comes to mind representing me is an ironclad birdcage, with what used to hold my fruitful heart, empty and stained in blood after it was ripped out, now rebuilding itself -- cell by cell. Slowly. Painfully. Might as well be a petri dish of affection, or openness to it. Anyway, I saw a post a while ago on Instagram saying you ...Sat, 22 Feb 2025 15:39:26 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1425428https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=14254281:29AM - Sunday, Feb 16] This is my first blog post, but also a very anxious one, because the start of any diary means that at any point, it could just disappear. A little scary, but that never stopped history from being archived before, so it would be best to start now. Why public? Why not private? I don't know. To be a little daring, since this is essentially anonymous. From the start of the day...Sun, 16 Feb 2025 00:36:46 +0000