https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=3235012The most recent Blog Entries by the User "agus :]" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1467353https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1467353well i'm writing this only so i don't lose practice. just woke up and about to go sleep again. busier evening than expected. no energy to make this into a list but i do have energy to remember that generally today was another day of feeling good about myself and very capable, and i didn't do anything today that took considerable effort, but it's my SECOND DAY of NOT DOING A CERTAIN THING that i ha...Sat, 08 Mar 2025 06:25:28 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1465342https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1465342second day of school and unbearable heat SURVIVED feeling HAPPY WITH MYSELF, directioned and full of strength. had a conversation with the very troublesome classmate who unwittingly set me on this path, and realized i feel a more genuine connnection with her as a person than to the people i'd normally call my best friends at school. "classmate" describes our relationship better though. maybe with ...Fri, 07 Mar 2025 02:47:39 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1463148https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1463148i think this is the format i'll go for from now on. i made this blog to do something about, or learn to do something about, the kind of state where i feel like i have no control over my body and my actions at all. yes it's probably undiagnosed adhd. no i'm not going to get it medicated yes i'll just be really dramatic about it instead. let me have my moment ok anyways, i want to keep track of the ...Thu, 06 Mar 2025 03:44:59 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1452021https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1452021never mind that i'm still struggling to keep a steady pace. never mind that i can't reach all my ambitions yet or all at once, and never mind that i still don't know how to set my goals so they're not too ambitious. never mind that i have a lot to learn and never mind that i don't know how to learn very well yet.  there's something so beautiful i can't quite express about being inexperienced and i...Sat, 01 Mar 2025 06:07:03 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1446784https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1446784slowing down is one of those things i'll suddenly remember i'm capable of doing and lately i've been having fun just doing it randomly.  i do it physically to relax, i'm always fidgeting moving some or another limb. if i slow down the movement to the point it's not natural to keep moving anymore it's really relaxing it's also nice to realize i can slow down while talking, even though i forget most...Wed, 26 Feb 2025 06:58:18 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1440506https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1440506not much to say today. i love this fucking creature and its eyes and legs and general shape it is so goofy and so terrifying. oh to be a lemmingSun, 23 Feb 2025 05:31:20 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1438364https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1438364i recently got a tarot reading from a dear friend (hi al!!!!!!!!!!!!) so i've been thinking a lot lately about supernatural signs, interpretation and divination.  i've never believed in tarot's inherent power and knowledge, and even though my reading wasn't accurate (everyone else's was), i still found myself thinking about it very seriously, trying to apply the reading of the cards to my life.  t...Sat, 22 Feb 2025 05:05:15 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1435941https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1435941today's blog centers around what should have been the entry for two days ago. i've been sadly coming down with an awful case of perfectionism that has the effect of making me think if i don't know exactly what to write about, exactly how to start, i shouldn't do it at all. symptoms include putting things off, finding excuses in being tired or busy and biting my nails while writing this sentence be...Fri, 21 Feb 2025 01:18:54 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1430069https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1430069(on time this time!) the title is a presentation of the direction of this blog entry as well as a lament. honestly in the beginning i was going to frame this all to be about sound. sound has a bigger impact on me than any of the other senses when it comes to making me feel emotions and this is ridiculous this time, because seeing an ancient, titanic glacier is a very visual experience. one would t...Tue, 18 Feb 2025 03:01:58 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1428520https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1428520WOAJ okay i am busy now !  until wednesday i'm going to be on a trip which is very enriching to me and also gives me no time to draw which is fine. since i have no empty time to fill.  i am about to go see the perito moreno glacier. couple observations so far about ca lafate, from yesterday: there are ibises here. they're called bandurrias in spanish and they make very sillMon, 17 Feb 2025 12:22:00 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1425762https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1425762nothing to say. see previous blog post for the struggles. now you can just enjoy a cool fae bunny lady i drewSun, 16 Feb 2025 03:22:51 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1425409https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1425409i realized i'm not equipped yet to tackle doing something creative every day like i intended, because i don't have the drive to take my art beyond doodles. this applies to drawing but also to music and really everything else. i have no problem grabbing my instruments of creation and coming up with something but there's something that keeps me from finishing anything i make.  it's not only getting ...Sun, 16 Feb 2025 00:25:12 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1420757https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1420757where do i even start.  some of you seeing this will have already heard me go on and on about siphonophores and superorganisms. possibly multiple times. i do NOT care, becauThu, 13 Feb 2025 20:44:12 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1419579https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1419579either the universe is trying to teach me a lesson in patience (that i understood well,  thanks) or i am the butt of a cruel joke by god. inclined to go with the latter. today when making this page i decided i wanted to post something creative every day, whether that be photography, a drawing, an analysis of something, a song... and then i spent ALL DAY stThu, 13 Feb 2025 05:47:00 +0000