https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=3369651The most recent Blog Entries by the User "Lilith" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1478226https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1478226For starters, life is still pretty much shit. I sit in class simply clinging to the slow and agonizing hours that drag on through the day's I spend in this hell built school. Even being at home hasn't exactly felt like my "true" home. Honestly, I update this now, 2 days after I initially began to write this random silly tangent of mine. I sit in my history class and wallow in just how truly alone ...Fri, 14 Mar 2025 18:20:59 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1466788https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1466788I'm not even going to sugarcoat or sweeten anything. School is mentally draining me more than anything I've gone through before. Elementary, middle, high school. Every single year, every month, every week, everyday, every hour, every minute.. every second, every millisecond. I dread school. It's not the education I've grown to despise, but rather the people, the methods used to teach. The kid's at...Fri, 07 Mar 2025 22:12:15 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1465662https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1465662I can't take this anymore, why is he playing so easily with my emotions? I truly believed he understood me, that our bond was strong and would only prosper the further we interacted. I had my heart slowly open to him, that trust I struggled so long to give.. forming for him. All for Him. Yet here I am.. I wallow in empty numbing thoughts, I cannot cry, I cannot let it all out. Truly possessing emo...Fri, 07 Mar 2025 06:30:23 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1462397https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1462397Honestly I don't know how to start this, just today has been draining mentally. I can't exactly express how I feel exactly with simply typed words... I've grown paranoid more often, teachers looming over me, people in general. I feel paranoid, as if I'm being judged or something. Having Schizophrenia hasn't exactly been any easier, if anything I feel more terrified.. Having nobody has made it hard...Wed, 05 Mar 2025 22:04:46 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1460738https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1460738just today at school during my 1st lunch I was as usual with my friend, let's call her m! Me and M always sit outside in the open area during lunch together, well it was as usual today until 7 or like 6 guys in one group (I kind of forgot exactly if there was 7 or 6...) anyways, so they approached us. I'm unsure if anyone knows but like they did that stupid trend or I guess a prank and said to my ...Wed, 05 Mar 2025 05:24:52 +0000