https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=3456915The most recent Blog Entries by the User "ZombieMasochist" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2111586https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2111586Even if it’s just your middle finger or a wicked snarl meant to stab me right in the eyes so I can’t ever see your beauty again, all I want is your attention. I can’t handle it, and I’d hate to admit it. I can’t help but look at other peoples pages to see what your up to these days. Never in my life will I forget or get over what I’d lost I mean this forever I miss youFri, 06 Mar 2026 12:28:19 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2104903https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2104903My thoughts are jumbled and knotted I just feel lonely But the blanket of depression keeps me warm Sulk Do you get what I mean?Sat, 28 Feb 2026 07:20:38 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2102831https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2102831Famished from perception of sensibility, I’m dying inside. There’s no room in this hell and there’s no room in the next I’ve got a collar made up of the hands of my mental state I swallow pills for it to stay at bay, but when it goes on vacation it packs my emotions and leaves for the dayThu, 26 Feb 2026 05:30:00 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2102826https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2102826There’s no home for me to turn to and there’s no place for me to run away to I set the bar to the ground to not worry about others expectations, destroying myself and wallowing in my puddle of mope Silence isn’t on my side it just screams in my ear and creates a sickening and painful tension The tension that scares you like your mothers eyes to at say I don’t want to deal with you anymore I can ta...Thu, 26 Feb 2026 05:18:39 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2077380https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2077380Shame knocks it's sense into me before I open my mouth about my feelings The feelings that make bones ache and heart moan out of despair The ones rocks are cast at with judgment and rejection Twisted words thrash back at me; My pain is not shared but used against 1:07 AM Dec 30th, 25Tue, 03 Feb 2026 23:46:59 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2077369https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2077369I'll move forwards at all costs, occasionally glancing back at the moments in the past I'll keep them in my heart but I don't take any time to step back, because I myself is enough to carry If you wanted a battle buddy, everything in the past you have to bury so we don't die  I'm a soldier who is cautious to step on the landmines of love, stuck in the middle of a war that's not mine to fight.Tue, 03 Feb 2026 23:35:14 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2026147https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2026147Love Letter From a Masochist  If life is being born into education to learn to work for and under the government who only cares about power then why live at all. If life is being born into a world of evil, then that must be what makes the good things valuable in a world of a broken society.  In the streets of decay, the countries lie in dismay. Manslaughter acts and bloodshed in cities, bring sorr...Mon, 22 Dec 2025 23:41:06 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2026135https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2026135I usually write how I'm feeling so I'm gonna post a little bit from my notes ^^.  December 13th, 2025 Let me be buried deep in the ground where the cold soil will envelope me in an embrace, Then maybe I can finally break from the troubles of life and even myself with eternal resting as a hug that will never let go.  There's no use for me if I can't love others the way they love me. I'm afraid all ...Mon, 22 Dec 2025 23:26:44 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1823181https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1823181(Last photo is me before work lol)Fri, 25 Jul 2025 04:07:02 +0000