https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=3481421The most recent Blog Entries by the User "kisses" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1605684https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1605684life's been feeling way more shitty recently. I've been relapsing. been smoking, twice a day for a week straight now. I'm harming myself again. binge eating. excessive cardio. and idk why not what's triggering it.  this is more of a call for help. I don't wanna be like this. so if u can, I u want to. pls do msg me, talk to me bout anything, I can promise I'm a good listener since a yapper lol, I p...Thu, 15 May 2025 21:47:20 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1601410https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1601410life's been feeling way more shitty recently. I've been relapsing. been smoking, twice a day for a week straight now. I'm harming myself again. binge eating. excessive cardio. and idk what's triggering it.  this is more of a call for help. I don't wanna be like this. so if u can, I u want to. pls do msg me, talk to me bout anything, I cant promise I'm a good listener since I'm a yapper lol, but I ...Tue, 13 May 2025 20:59:01 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1597314https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1597314it happened again. with the same person, was drunk. I pulled her in. maybe that was my fault. it was wrong, but she came with anyways. I kissed her. she kissed back. things escalated fast."its my first time" never sounded so real. I did what I did cs I liked and like her. and I thought we felt the same way. not until she stopped and hugged me, crying, letting the words "I just wanna hug someone rn...Mon, 12 May 2025 06:15:54 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1575402https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1575402Everything is fucked up. I'm fucking up my own life and future. "maybe God is redirecting you to a better path" what if he's not and my failure is actually my fault? I've been failing my classes miserably. I'd rather help my classmates on their work, than do mine. Idrk why i do that, but maybe it's bcs I get that good feeling after helping them, maybe that's why. But thenni ask myself what's in it...Fri, 02 May 2025 15:38:44 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1557258https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1557258When i thought my lifw couldn't get any more shittier than how it was 2 years ago, it just did.  I'm supposed to be graduating this AY but I'm not. I stopped school halfway thru, and seeing my friends post their grad photos is making me sick. Don't get me wrong, im so happy for them. But fuck am i dissapointed in myself. Cs ik how much potential i got. Ik i caWed, 23 Apr 2025 21:38:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1508818https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1508818WELP i  accidentally called the gc where i dont send msgs to and also where those 2 girls are admins at😭😭 My anxiety iss hoooooTue, 01 Apr 2025 13:59:02 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1508713https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1508713I hate it. I regret everything that i ever shared with the both of them. Why would they do that? It's so fucked up. Ik i have my mistakes too and im not denying that.  And now apparently she told ppl abt THAT night, she n the other r like laughing about this in a groupchat with our other friends (mostly theirs). She's reposting posts saying she regrets it. And i understand, probably the guilt. But...Tue, 01 Apr 2025 12:33:55 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1507992https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1507992this had been bothering me for a while now. i have this friend, well not anymore. a lil context; we met a year ago, started talking a few months back, met up, she got a girlfriend, something happened between us. yep, something happened. Under the influence . I fucking hated it. she stopped talking to me for a week, which i understand.but then suddenly she messaged me weekly, to come over at their ...Tue, 01 Apr 2025 00:44:38 +0000