https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=3540760The most recent Blog Entries by the User "v" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2148544https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2148544hi everyone, i’ve wanted a penpal for so long but it’s impossible from many aspects.  so i’ve thought i could find some e-penpals! we can send each other long e-mails, tell us each other about our days and it can even stay totally anonymous.  if anyone’s interested you can comment under this and i’ll send you my e-mail adress! Sun, 19 Apr 2026 18:42:35 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2141293https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2141293oh i’m fine, it’s alright. everything’s fine. until it’s 5 am and i’m alone and there’s nothing to distract me from my sadness, from realizing no one actually cares enough. maybe i’m selfish for thinking so, i know my best friend is doing the best she can. but she’s too far away (literally, she lives in another city) and i desperately need someone to hold my hand, hug me, let me break down in fron...Thu, 09 Apr 2026 02:24:30 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2137102https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2137102my best friend texted me to tell me to change my bandages but i relapsed while doing so and now i feel more shitty and guilty Fri, 03 Apr 2026 18:20:17 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2137098https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2137098can’t smoke on this rainy day so i’ll sh instead ahh dayFri, 03 Apr 2026 18:17:52 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2134293https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2134293how do you ever deal with the dilemma of not wanting your friends to realize you’re hurting yourself because you don’t wanna be a burden to them any more than you already are but also kinda want them to realize because you need a shoulder to cry on and some comfort without judging.  i feel so sad. i had this whole 3 year sobriety and i fucked that up. now no milestone is gonna make me feel better....Tue, 31 Mar 2026 02:15:05 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2129505https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2129505i wish i wasn’t so desperate for attention. my long distance crush/situationship/whatever just tweeted that he has a crush on someone. wow. such great news! but i have to ask what about the fact that you keep hitting on me ? or am i just too much of an idiot to think that was flirting and you were just joking around and i just take it too seriously? i’m so fucking tired man i told myself that this...Tue, 24 Mar 2026 23:24:44 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2089624https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2089624when your long distance crush has gone to a heated rivalry party wearing a rozanov tshirt and you know he’s gonna get figuratively eaten by some handsome autistics but you can’t do anything about it because you guys don’t even have a situationship and you’re just someone he talks to in his free time Sat, 14 Feb 2026 22:45:48 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2040307https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2040307i talk and i talk and i talk. i talk so much that i feel embarrassed afterwards because everytime i open my mouth it’s like a long crying plea for someone to understand me and i am so tired. and i’m so mad at myself because all my friends ever do is be nice to me and i’m still so sad and depressed and when i’m upset about my shitty grades i feel even worse because i did this to myself and i don’t ...Sun, 04 Jan 2026 00:51:55 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2029211https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2029211ever since i moved out from my parents’ house, i’ve realized how absent they’ve been through my whole life. i could never tell them the things i actually cared about. they never got to know who i actually am and i don’t think they ever will. i tried so fucking hard to understand their perspective and motives but they never tried to do the same with me. it was always their beliefs and their rules a...Thu, 25 Dec 2025 22:44:48 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2026615https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2026615i once made myself believe that my partner is gonna leave me anyways and now i find it hard to even chat with them and they don’t try either so it’s just really suffocating.  short version of this text: bpd is kicking my ass.  i know they won’t leave me but at the same i don’t know. it’s like i Know but i can’t make myself believe it. it’s always the same problems i don’t know why i even keep tryi...Tue, 23 Dec 2025 09:13:39 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2025700https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2025700i don’t have passion for anything. i don’t do anything with an ambition. i think that’s the biggest void in my life. i have no reason to keep living and it’s driving me mad. i don’t enjoy anything enough to make an obsession of it for a long time so maybe it could get me career or at least a hobby, an outlet. i have none. i have tried everything. i don’t want anything enough to fight for it. i am ...Mon, 22 Dec 2025 15:39:17 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2025688https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2025688i couldn’t sleep at all last night. so today after i was done with college i wanted to take a nap for an hour. i woke up like 20 minutes ago and i feel like shit. i’ve felt like shit for a long time now so it’s not something new but somedays i feel like i can’t bear it any longer and i’m ashamed to tell my friends that i feel so bad that i can’t even get out of bed to eat most of the time. they lo...Mon, 22 Dec 2025 15:30:51 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2024796https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2024796do you ever feel guilty about having too much fun while chatting with other people than your partner? obviously i’m still in love with them but i sometimes wish that our conversations would get a little more fun so i won’t have to push myself to ask the same questions again and again just to pull the same words out of their mouth. it’s getting exhausting and i feel so guilty about it because we boSun, 21 Dec 2025 20:11:50 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1554620https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1554620this is kind of funny coming from me since i’m mostly a loner and don’t like being around people much but i Love making friends and i love having little interactions with people i don’t even know. today i saw a dog cutely lying down on the floor so i smiled it at it and a middle aged woman smiled with me too, yesterday i was at a children’s playground and i was swinging and this seven year old swi...Tue, 22 Apr 2025 16:42:16 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1543658https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1543658boy i did drink tonight but it didn’t feel nearly as good as listening to live through this album while constantly falling asleep and waking up. being drunk should feel like this but it doesn’t. it reminds me of my migraines it’ll be a while before i drink again.  also i hate myself so much i’m literally unbearable i dk why’s anybody staying beside me. and this semester i kinda flanked academicall...Fri, 18 Apr 2025 22:45:14 +0000