https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=3785094The most recent Blog Entries by the User "♫︎ ✯star✯ ♫︎" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2110156https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2110156Turns out I have ADHD, it adds up with everything in my life, but fuck. I knew I was different, I knew I had something when my family pleaded that there was nothing wrong, this mixed with my CPTSD is so so ass man, I'm so "sensitive" but I feel like I just really care. I care so much seeing how the world is severely makes me upset, I can't stop thinking about it some nights. IT IS NOT FUN TO BE NE...Thu, 05 Mar 2026 03:14:10 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2101380https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2101380I hate being so needy. I just wanted a safe space with my mother, since my father was never around for such a request. Couldn't have that with her, didn't have that with anyone. I feel wrong for wanting to be understood, but what is there to understand with me? Nothing. Other than deep down, I see no point in healing. I see no point in love, I can't even love myself, I don't see myself as loveable...Tue, 24 Feb 2026 21:08:26 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1994211https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1994211I just don't feel like I exist, I don't feel real. I want to be the best I can, and report to whatever god I meet about how this world is, and how the leaders of this world treat the planet and their own. It sounds crazy probably, but it's real to me. I see this life as temporary.Tue, 25 Nov 2025 05:03:52 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1978472https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1978472This is a triggering post regarding addiction, suicide, abuse, and depression. Know there's help for you, suicide hotlines are available. you matter. I love(d) alcohol. I would have such a shitty day, I would have such a shitty week where I am stuck mentally where I was when I had endured abuse from my mother, with my family knowing about it and doing nothing. I loved it because it would make me h...Tue, 11 Nov 2025 02:26:06 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1931195https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1931195how do I move forward when I can't feel any significant positivity? when everything feels hopeless and a piece of work? why do I have to be so scared of death and suicidal? i feel like i don't know my future, and it's better off for me to die young. So I don't have to deal with the prolonged, constant fear of what life will bring. I would be more comfortable watching the world and and acknowledgin...Tue, 30 Sep 2025 03:29:02 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1898828https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1898828anyone else was there for the show on the 28th?? I never seen such a large band peform, especially at a stadium. Unforgetable, very much looking forward to going to more, i'm hooked.Mon, 01 Sep 2025 19:11:14 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1872232https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1872232Anyone else had to get medication for their stupid brain? This is the second time i'm being recommended, by a separate psychiatrist. The first recommendation was Zoloft, but I was a minor at the time and my abusive mother, (who would *Monitor* these sessions) swiftly shut the recommendation down. Fast forward with me finally not living with her, and my second psychiatrist recommended prozac. Anyon...Sat, 09 Aug 2025 21:31:56 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1850528https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1850528Cashier Wagie here, and man do people suck. They're so rude at times and only care for the price instead of any nice gesture. Usually the older people. I never knew what I wanted to do when I was younger, even now. But I don't think working a minimum wage job full of old farts and people around my age that already have their own friend groups was the plan. I dreamed of having more freedom than liv...Fri, 01 Aug 2025 17:16:39 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1770066https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1770066I watched anime before, not too much but I had. And one villian that had stood out to me was Broly, the *original* Broly. The way he would Bully the Z fighters, tank Gokus Kamehameha (POINT BLANK) and talk shit while towering over his foes, and the laughter during it all. Broly had genuine fun fighting for as long as he did, so much so he decided to stunt on some slaves by blowing their planet up ...Wed, 09 Jul 2025 04:24:22 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1758243https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1758243Man, I don't want to be the type to put all my problems out there. Anyone else had problems with being hopeful about the future since they were a child?  I can't pinpoint where or what exactly caused this, but this life of mine has been confusing and at times feels like it's a dream. I don't trust people anymore. I can't believe it. I used to be the most friendly, annoying, happy kid ever. I loved...Sat, 05 Jul 2025 16:33:20 +0000