https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=39151The most recent Blog Entries by the User "Psylent" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1397557https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1397557I'm really not looking forward to tomorrow, it's gonna be a rough one... I couldn't sleep last night, my mind was racing with all these thoughts and emotions, worry, anxiety, etc. I feel sick and I'm trying not to cry today. The thought of not being able to see the 2 people that I love more than anything for a whole year is just unbearable, and has been for 2 months already. I'm missing out on imp...Mon, 03 Feb 2025 17:26:45 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1351129https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1351129Last night I had a bunch of different dreams about my fiance and my son. I'm missing them more and more each day, it's getting harder and harder to deal with but I just think of all the good times we've had in order to get through it... Some of the dreams with just my fiance and I were sexual, I just miss her in every way and it's hard not knowing if she's feeling the same way or not. I also hope ...Mon, 06 Jan 2025 20:43:11 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1345251https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1345251SUCKED!!! And of course the last month of it turned out to be the worst, I guess a "grand finale" of shittiness... I mean some good things came out of it, like my son starting school and improving with his speech and other things. But overall it was just another shitty year. I thought things were finally getting better towards the end, only to have everything completely flip upside down in a matte...Tue, 31 Dec 2024 20:49:59 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1338399https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1338399Every single night since I've been sober when I finally am able to shut my brain off and fall asleep, I've been having these weird dreams. They always involve my fiance and our son, so I guess it's my brains way of helping me see/be with them in some way since I currently can't in real life 😞 (long story)... Sometimes I don't remember much of the details once I wake up, other times I remember most...Mon, 23 Dec 2024 02:29:23 +0000