https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=4219872The most recent Blog Entries by the User "maud" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2057105https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2057105it's ridiculous, isn't it? that i still think about him. that his name feels like an echo beneath my skin, even now that everything is over. i don't hate him. i think that's the worst part. i should hate him.  he told me i was just a transition. a bandage. something you use until the real wound comes back. and yet, when i can't sleep at night, i wish for this poison agaSat, 17 Jan 2026 15:13:31 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1955340https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1955340sometimes i scroll through the feed and wonder when exactly we traded heartbeat for algorithm. when the hum of machines stopped sounding like progress and started sounding like hunger.  everyone's terrified of being replaced. you hear it whispered: the foreigners are taking our jobs. but loTue, 21 Oct 2025 17:27:55 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1951242https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1951242What do you think? :) 🫀💻 maud.Fri, 17 Oct 2025 22:06:18 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1928211https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1928211sometimes i think the wires of our movements get crossed on purpose. sparks where there should be current. silence where there should be sound. and lately, the circuit-breaker word seems to be radical feminism.  every time it's spoken, the feed fills with static: "radSat, 27 Sep 2025 19:03:52 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1926075https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1926075hey everyone! thank you for the support. i've seen your comments, the kudos that keep the page lit, and the friend requests piling up like unread messages. i'll accept them all as soon as i can. i'm not great mentally right now, so everything feels heavier than usual, but i want you to know: i still want to be here for you. i care. i hold you. i love you all, even when my screen tThu, 25 Sep 2025 20:49:43 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1912767https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1912767lately i keep noticing it. the absence. not silence, not distance, but something emptier: the way people don't feel anymore; or at least, don't let themselves.  someone shares pain, and the replies float back: "it's not that deep.", but it is that deep. it's always deep when someone rips their chest open and spills what hurts.  but onSun, 14 Sep 2025 09:19:46 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1911842https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1911842lately the atmosphere here feels a little heavier. this place used to glow like an alternate frequency. where kids with torn tights, messy eyeliner, strange music tastes could spill their hearts and stitch them together. a corner for outsiders, dreamers, punks, goths, anyone too jagged for the mainstream current.  but after charlie kirk's death, the silence broke open in a way i didn't exSat, 13 Sep 2025 13:11:57 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1911438https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1911438he's so silly. i love him.  🫀💻 maud. Sat, 13 Sep 2025 01:49:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1910902https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1910902everywhere i look, the circuits are breaking. friends get together, friends split apart. couples glow bright like neon for a moment, then flicker, then vanish.  i keep wondering… is love actually real? or are people just desperate to fill the silence? so many connections feel rushed, like faulty code, just two people plugging in because they can't stand being offline alFri, 12 Sep 2025 15:39:35 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1910149https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1910149sometimes i ask myself: who actually cares?  not in the "dramatic cry for help" way,  but in the quiet way,  when the screen glows and i'm typing into the void, Thu, 11 Sep 2025 20:14:44 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1909807https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1909807the signal reaches you. finally.  you can call me maud (the letters don't matter; the frequency does). i'm 17 years old, but age feels more like a ghost-number than a fact. i live in germany, though most of the time i'm logged in deeper than geography.  this space is where i'll drop transmissions:Thu, 11 Sep 2025 14:27:23 +0000