https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=4222646The most recent Blog Entries by the User "Stepclaw" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2086518https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2086518About Me: I'm commonly known as Stepclaw online, but sometimes my friends call me Claw. :3 I'm 17, and I share a birthday with Helen Forrester. I'm a cis girl.Thu, 12 Feb 2026 00:16:23 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2083740https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2083740I don't hate myself,  but I do not like myself either.  I often stare  at my reflection  and wonder what it's like to be  someone else. "I don't hate myself,  I just want to be somebody else"  Dazey and The Scouts - they were pretty  on-point, I  believe.  The desire to escape oneself is something we all  experience, but others  desire it intenselMon, 09 Feb 2026 08:45:19 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2074503https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2074503Everything disappears, and you are all  that I  see;  morning,  night -  no matter the time,  you are  all that I  believe; on a bus, at home, surrounded by snow - it does not faze me, you are  all that I  feel.  --- Then it is over, like a taut string snapping,  a stone sinking through deep,  murky water -  you are  all  that I  avoid; Sun, 01 Feb 2026 08:42:57 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2072437https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2072437Blood. I feel blood  pouring from my mouth, but I do not  see it.  I feel blood dripping down my fingers,  but everything I touch is clean.  Blood is pooling around my feet, and yet the carpet is not stained.  There is so much blood,  too much blood -  the blood of my mind.Fri, 30 Jan 2026 08:32:30 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2071235https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2071235What am I  without you? I feel  hopelessly  lost, wandering  aimlessly through darkness -  where is the light? The light that is your  presence?  A moth to a flame, is all that I am,  still hopeful  that there is real light,  after the many, many times that there  was  not. --- I am lost, without you I feel as if I am  nothing. Thu, 29 Jan 2026 06:07:54 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2059312https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2059312Part One: https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2059308, or "I See Now; The Ashes Are What Remains - Part One of Two". --- Among the ashes, I see an ember, a tiny  spark -  something that needs me, as much as I need it.  --- The ember is small, not strong enough to be  alone,  not yet.  Neither am I,  not ready to be  alone -  that is okay.  I am okay.Mon, 19 Jan 2026 09:05:05 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2059308https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2059308I feel that everything I  know is  burning. I see my friends, disappearing  into their own lives -  no longer bound by education,  or family. And yet, I am rooted down, to this place, that doesn't feel like home. --- The one friend, whom is very, very dear to me, no longer considers me as such.  Is it because I said that I  likedMon, 19 Jan 2026 08:59:56 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2024341https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2024341A whirlwind  of thoughts and  memories. I am shaking, again, and my vision is blurry. I can see stars and hear voices - Can you hear them too? "No." Of course not - why would you? The voices are my own imagination, running wild.  The red is what we  desire, it is what could inspire a bigger, more impactfuSun, 21 Dec 2025 07:38:09 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2019528https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2019528Kind of a random question; but is there like a widespread signal for being a lesbian? I know that the aces have their rings but I don't know if there's a thing for lesbians too.  This is a serious question by the way. TvT"Wed, 17 Dec 2025 00:57:38 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2017258https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2017258Hello to whoever decided to read this! I've just had a random, spur-of-the-moment decision to make a list of things that I want to achieve in 2026. c: 1. Get a job This is my main goal, as I really, really, REALLY need a job, and so that I can start saving up for a sewing machine... and feed my Hot Topic "addiction" (she says as she only gets like four things a year).  2. Save up for a sewing mach...Mon, 15 Dec 2025 02:33:36 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2016437https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2016437Crazy. What defines 'crazy'? Thinking of hurting people? Being able to operate with only a few hours of sleep for weeks? Or, perhaps, acting without thinking? But then again, they say  that these are traits of surgeons, heroes, and great scientists - they were still considered crazy, though.Sun, 14 Dec 2025 10:55:45 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2004799https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2004799Everything feels like fire. I cannot think, I cannot breathe, I cannot  stop shaking. I keep  picking and  pulling at my skin, hoping for it  to stop. Please  just stop. I cannot handle my  hair touching my face, my leg bouncing, my nose bleeding - why is it bleeding? When did it start? Now my leg is bleeding too. IThu, 04 Dec 2025 10:49:34 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1996228https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1996228Writing the second review for the second movie in the Underworld series. :3 The DVD offered subtitles, which I like (mainly because I can't hear shit lol).  They were accurate most of the time, though they get rid of a lot of the fancy words in the dialogue. The overall plot was good, although the scene from the first movie was different (referring to Lucians' memories that were passed through to ...Thu, 27 Nov 2025 00:14:23 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1995511https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1995511I feel like I'm dying every time that  I see your  face.  I'm reminded of the past, a woman and you arguing over little things. She hit you, hit me,  but then cried because of her actions. Yet we still loved her, we still stuck around, but she did not. You say that it was a selfish act, but if it were you--  you would have done  the same.Wed, 26 Nov 2025 07:47:12 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1995416https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1995416I recently decided to rewatch the Underworld movie series, and I thought that it would be fun to write little review things about the movies as I watch them. First, the captions were a bonus; accurate most of the time, and the overall dialogue was nice - good grammar, comprehensible English, ect.  The movie is pretty much a crossbreed of Twilight and Resident Evil, and somehow they've pulled it of...Wed, 26 Nov 2025 04:59:02 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1993164https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1993164I got Half Light recently from a second-hand shop, watched it, and now I'm writing a review thing (Please note that this is a half-assed review, as I cannot be fucked writing a lot right now). The DVD offered the option of captions which was nice, and they were accurate most of the time (except like three lines where music interfered).  I would classify it as paranormal horror/mystery, as there ar...Mon, 24 Nov 2025 07:25:12 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1987700https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1987700I got The Breakfast Club on DVD today, and I watched it earlier... now I'm sharing my thoughts and opinions on the film. First of all; it had semi-accurate captions, which was nice, but it was difficult to understand what they were saying as compared to inaccurate captions that appeared at times. It also had the trailer included as a 'special feature' (or something titled similarly) which was nice...Wed, 19 Nov 2025 07:53:20 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1987695https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1987695I recently found The Spitfire Grill at a second-hand shop (for the low price of 2$ >:3), watched it, and now I'm writing a brief review on the film. I really enjoyed the movie, and the plot was amazing - similar to the plot of Girl In Pieces, but more thought-out; it has more detail in the side characters, and gives quite the personalities to them all. I think that giving the main character an abu...Wed, 19 Nov 2025 07:41:01 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1982901https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1982901I found a quiz, felt like doing it, so I did it. c: name:: Stepclaw (Online persona). nickname:: Claw. how old are you:: 17. zodiac sign:: Gemini.Sat, 15 Nov 2025 02:22:34 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1969194https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1969194Sometimes I think that I am dead, simply tasked with observing life around me. I often go unnoticed, merely a distant being, not really there. When I am noticed, it is forced, a requirement -  I am a burden that is avoided when possible. But I still breathe,  think,  feel - I must be alive.  I am a conscious being, as are they - but we are of a different breed; I observeMon, 03 Nov 2025 05:36:08 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1960397https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1960397What an idiot I must be, to care so much,  for one who cares so little. You say that you wish, that you wish to bring harm to yourself,  and I, I do what is in my power  to make you see reason, to prevent the pain that it is bound to cause. ... There is a memory, of a little girl, overhearing a conversation between adults, "She passed away, two  hours ago." The girl couldn't believSun, 26 Oct 2025 09:12:18 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1957103https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1957103So... I recently got American Teen on DVD from a second hand shop,  and thought that I should do a review thing, since I watched it. :3 I think that it was really well filmed for a documentary, and I quite like that they had a lot of raw stuff (like mental illness, dealing with bullying, ect), but managed to keep it comedic as well.  As for DVD features, I quite like that they had cast interviews,...Thu, 23 Oct 2025 04:47:04 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1956906https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1956906Destruction. Trees have blown over, cars have been smashed, powerlines have fallen. ... Wind, calm as a cat in the sun, the ocean on the sand. Wind, as manic as a meltdown, a tsunami on the rise. ... This is what mother nature is; peaceful, serene, and chaotic,  destructive.Thu, 23 Oct 2025 01:07:35 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1954450https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1954450It’s raining, Mon, 20 Oct 2025 21:51:07 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1953665https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1953665I recently thought of making a quiz thing for people to do... so here it is! 1. Favorite food? Lasagna, the bestest (bestest?) food ever. 2. Ankle socks or knee-high socks? Knee-high; ankle socks always slip and bunch up... 3. Advice to younger self? Autism. Oh, and watch Star Trek and Empire Records. 4. Top 3 Games? Minecraft (specifically 1.12.2...) Terraria Run 3 5. Green, blue, purple, or yell...Mon, 20 Oct 2025 04:30:06 +0000