https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=4257877The most recent Blog Entries by the User "The spawn of satan" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2152302https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2152302Please help me ,make me stop feeling this way ,make me myself ,don't make me someone else.i don't want to feel this way anymore ,help me talk to my mother about this ,help me . Hug me , help me ,I can no longer write poetry and make art ,I'm losing myself,I'm becoming a corpse day by day ,help me .save me. Pull me up from the water. I don't want to feel filthy ,i don't want to feel anything but li...Sat, 25 Apr 2026 10:55:22 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2147168https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2147168Curling fingertips threaded onto one another's hair/fingertips engraving words onto one another's body/breaths mingling onto one another's mouth/body conjoined as one/ oh lord! If thee see this as sin,what heaven has thee touched?Fri, 17 Apr 2026 17:41:08 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2147162https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2147162Woke up in a bad mood and went to the exam hall ,wrote the exam (mind u ,my hands were stinging with pain) after the exam ,saw this Lil cute boy who draws rlly well (6th grade) HE WAS RLLY EXCITED. he drew my hair btw ,and then went back to my class and talked with classmates,at th end of the class everyone was hugging ,I got hugs too . Then i realise my vehicle to go home hasn't arrived yet so me...Fri, 17 Apr 2026 17:30:55 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2147157https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2147157Could I ever get better? Perhaps not.how do I feel better? Who knows. How I wish I could rest beneath the grass and listen to the wind instead of feeling whatever that I'm feeling . It's clawing at my ribs trying so hard to be free but does it get free? No. FUCK THIS ALL .IM DISTURBED .IM NUMB.IM EVERYTHING AND NOTHING AT ONCE. I prefer getting admitted to a mental hospital.i hate hearing laughter...Fri, 17 Apr 2026 17:19:00 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2147154https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2147154To the kids who tried to kiss the sun I used to wonder ,when I was a child "what would I be in the future?", "would i be free?" .I used to dream and dream. What was I dreaming about ? Ii don't know.what was i feeling? I don't know. I know nothing ,I feel filthy , there's vomit on me at this moment, except it's just me .wait for a few hours and I will feel that I'm divine again .  How heavenly woul...Fri, 17 Apr 2026 17:15:21 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2147153https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2147153I can feel the melancholy drumming through my veins / waiting to be converted into poetry/I can feel the heart feel heavy for once /rather than nothing/I can feel my soul , /feeling time/feeling blood running through me/ feeling the sadness inside me/for once dear! I'm unleashed from the clutches of anger / my fingers are waiting / to embrace the pen/ and words would flow/ let me keep this feeling...Fri, 17 Apr 2026 17:13:33 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2068053https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2068053Would it feel good if my throat was ripped by you-blood spilling like droplets of stars .would you savour the taste of my flesh like how we enjoy a nice piece of meat? Consume me,consume my sorrow ,fear,longing,grief and be left with melancholy.cut my flesh, however you want it,rip out my heart and give it to the god who told you not to kill,as a sacrifice.Engrave your name in my skin ,only then w...Mon, 26 Jan 2026 15:30:32 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2059638https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2059638To my moon, For the first time ,I am at a loss of words.it always flows,no matter how damaged I am. Somehow the love I have for you doesn't fit into words.why is that? Is it because of my inability or because of the intensity of my love? .at night I imagine falling into your arms , listening to your voice and drown into sleep. I imagine your voice and your eyes are plaguing my brain in a good way....Mon, 19 Jan 2026 17:28:52 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2041957https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2041957Dear moon, All day thinking about you, heavily dreaming about you,writting your name in my palm everyday,is it because of that one word people throw around?I think it is something much greater ,much divine .I lay on the grass imagining your scent,under the moon I ask it if you are well. I wonder if your breaths have ever brushed me through the wind , At times ,I fear that we would drift away but I...Mon, 05 Jan 2026 05:19:17 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2026911https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2026911She waits everyday by the lake for the one woman that had touched her face so tenderly and told ""you are a p iece of nature's soul"" she didn't understand it then,only when the woman caressed her face and took her feet in the palm to hear it up ,did she realise the meaning. Before she knew ,the moment has passed ,just like how every season passes and she was eager for spring ,so that she could me...Tue, 23 Dec 2025 18:01:20 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2026892https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2026892I wish to make my sufferings beautiful Enough to decieve the god into hearing it-touching it , thinking it's a beautiful prayer  B ut infact I had merely disguised it with beauty ,t o hide the wretched thing --Just like how a soul has a body inorder to hide it's ugliness Tue, 23 Dec 2025 17:39:13 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1994589https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1994589I read something and I wanted to share this. If u ever feel ugly just know that there's a Japanese myth that says your face in the present is the face of the person you loved the most in your past life .sometimes we should believe in myths inorder to make ourselves happier . You see whenever I see a human who redeems themselves as ugly I imagine them in the right amount of light,water dripping fro...Tue, 25 Nov 2025 14:35:31 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1991093https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1991093Cannibalism is infact a metaphor for addiction but it is often used for love. perhaps the reason for it might be how a person can be addicted to the other in an otherworldly way that they feel the need to consume them.afterall what is love without addiction?Sat, 22 Nov 2025 14:57:34 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1991083https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1991083I'm a human and I guess that's why I'm complex I have depression and it's certainly not that good .I figured out that depression in fact affects the complete working of your brain hence im unable to remember things here and there.my memories are foggy and i detest it .I wrote when I was 11  "Forever can only exist in memories and that's why my greatest fear is to lose the ability to remember it" t...Sat, 22 Nov 2025 14:39:33 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1963208https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1963208Beside  singing ocean where I'm embraced by my beloved ,I try to make out the ocean's singing but I'm distracted by something  don't posses  knowledge of .I'm called by my beloved and I go ,she takes my hand and I hold on to it in fear it would disappear.I take a while to realise that my darling is gone    "is she in the ocean?" Something fogs my mind to which I scream perhaps that angered the oce...Tue, 28 Oct 2025 18:31:50 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1936087https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1936087I've been feeling bad lately,under the weather, lost. I have maladaptive day dreaming disorder and it's been getting bad lately.Its been hard to distinguish between dream and reality.it's been hard to talk to people . Frankly it's been hard to live .now that I think about it humans really can't live without company they would die frm isolation I fear I would too it's swallowing me whole.I'm rottin...Sat, 04 Oct 2025 15:52:51 +0000