https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=4286521The most recent Blog Entries by the User "Delilah" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2080197https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2080197I've been kinda gone. haven't used this site in a FAT minute. life been busy moms in the cities and all with her toxic boyfriend. why does she go for the alcoholics.  all I can really do is look for drug related blogs and ed sites from 2009. I should start reading again. and journaling. I miss journaling, but now that im older it's kinda something I like to do more digitally than on paper. I just ...Fri, 06 Feb 2026 01:31:16 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2051483https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2051483I feel it deteriorating. I feel it falling apart. :(. why did I go back and look at all that stuff cause I just feel like im a terrible person and I hate who I am and I need to be yelled at for feeling this way. the urge to smoke and get unbelievably high is so hard to resist. I need to be detached from this on the wall feeling. I feel like im on the edge. everyone around me. "are you okay?" "you ...Mon, 12 Jan 2026 19:12:03 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2051448https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2051448im 19. im diagnosed with so much shit I cant even remember? bpd, ptsd, mdd, unspecified mood disorder, generalized anxiety too like fuck. im going to pick up some drgs tomorrow. I uhm. feel terrible and miserable. I feel like my boyfriend is like distancing and it hurts I need him to stay. stay forever. I need him in my life. I dont ever wanna love another person but him. I like. I feel so passion...Mon, 12 Jan 2026 18:45:14 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1994199https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1994199I dealt with a lot of drug abuse in high school with tramadol, xanax, & marijuana. It was my only coping mechanism I had at the time cause I refused to continue cutting myself.  I stopped over the summer and it got so much better, but with stress of any kind will cause a relapse and I've been getting into my old habits and struggling with depression again.  I lately feel like i'm to reliant on my ...Tue, 25 Nov 2025 04:54:36 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1993507https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1993507I have night terrors plenty of times. they aren't as bad as they used to be. the nightmares are Definitely worse when I'm actually living through it or I'm re-experiencing something similar/triggered an episode. But Lately? I keep having dreams where I'm sucking up to past abusers and groomers and Begging for their attention and forgiveness. I don't know why??? I had one dream where I fried my evi...Mon, 24 Nov 2025 16:53:47 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1991489https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1991489Apologizes for being so gone!! been busy!! ANYWAY ONTO BLOG x3 college is ok till ur professor says "which is better" "correct option" like??? correct Option??? Its art!! Art cannot be strategized other than individual style being different from others. be unique. dont submit to minimalism. dont submit to societies desires. design what is yours, design your own strategized. I hate doing homework d...Sat, 22 Nov 2025 22:47:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1973806https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1973806today im gonna go onto the topic of fps. and my experience with them. past fps and present. my thoughts and how they affected me then vs now. big trauma dump fyi. let me know if you relate...Fri, 07 Nov 2025 02:48:07 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1973180https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1973180I checked my abusive ex best friends instagram and found out she went to a concert I canceled on going to. the one on halloween. I went to my sisters instead and thank god I did. I think I would throw up if I saw her irl again. I just feel sick thinking and knowing I could possibly see her at other events and shit. I'm never going out alone to a concert because of this bitch. I know damn well she ...Thu, 06 Nov 2025 16:45:07 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1972254https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1972254I've had bpd since I was practically a child. it gets progressively worse peaking around 14-18 for me. I'm still 18 struggling with it, but I've gone to therapy and all so I manage it pretty well and YES people stigmatize me for having it. I'm pretty healthy and obviously I have my episodes because I still have a personality disorder, but it's not impossible to live with. you just need the right p...Wed, 05 Nov 2025 19:58:16 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1969546https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1969546I haven't had the motivation for college anymore and im getting lowkey? Depressed? I'm just Stressed and I kind of want to take time off work to focus on school. I know I don't need to, but lately I've been so unmotivated and struggling to find the inspiration for school and what I'm supposed to be passionate about. I just wanna do nothing and stay home all day and be a hermit. I miss my boyfriend...Mon, 03 Nov 2025 15:13:35 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1967959https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1967959soooo yesterday was a total disaster #stupid. uhm! I went to the emergency vet at 12 at MIDNIGHT and could NOT find the lobby fml. My cats fine But Gaw Dam. $480 for the bill. I had a kinda bad night.i woke up and was just really Really feelin it. thennnn I got my friend teagan to get me outta da house. which ended up being a lowkey fun day. #happy. I love my boyfriend he bought me Taco Bell. im c...Sun, 02 Nov 2025 04:58:03 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1966570https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1966570I love dinamitas they r so gudFri, 31 Oct 2025 21:10:30 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1965847https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1965847https://web.archive.org/web/20090728233013/http://geocities.com/sailor_x_rose/  - someones sailor moon oc XD https://web.archive.org/web/20090829094951/http://geocities.com/saya_nomor_satu/makeyourowndolls.html  - pixel fashion site. totes cute. mostly fem. Fri, 31 Oct 2025 03:10:18 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1965422https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1965422Solo going to buy cds may be a possibility and yet im so afraid? I dont wanna go alone :Thu, 30 Oct 2025 19:05:25 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1964814https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1964814Thu, 30 Oct 2025 03:40:54 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1964712https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1964712today was absolutely BoRing. I slept for most of it and class was legit just screen recordings like wtf?! I got home and PASSED out. I was so tired. Luckily I didn't have to work today for some odd reason? not sure why! maybe I had an appointment and forgot all about it... oops... should probably check and make sure. anyway! I woke up and then went to kise after a bit to get lunch with a friend. g...Thu, 30 Oct 2025 01:45:22 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1963595https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1963595Wed, 29 Oct 2025 01:02:30 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1963112https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1963112CANNOT WAIT 4 my new tat. my first tat. it's on my back. cannot wait to send all the pics of my back to my boyfriend. I'm getting angel wings on my back. I will post a pic! I can wear slutty clothes without being called a slut! because I have a tattoo! yay! I need to get pasties so I can wear like t-shirts with cuts in the back. this sounds bad, but I need to start not eating so I can lose some fa...Tue, 28 Oct 2025 16:54:31 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1962018https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1962018im so Tired of Life rn. Like I'm so high on it, but I dont wanna do it anymore.Mon, 27 Oct 2025 18:34:20 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1961764https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1961764I'm getting angel wings tomorrow! $300. fuh.... so much money! my boyfriend is helping me cover it thank god. I'm just so excited though because this will give me more reason to like my body more. shit will hurt like hell though! but like I'm kinda a masochist and pain feels good sometimes. maybe it will take away some of my stress. LOL!  What tattoos do any of u guys have! let me know. xpMon, 27 Oct 2025 14:10:13 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1961357https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1961357I'm not really sure how to do layouts anymore. I used to know how to code when I was 13 on Tumblr back in 2020, but it's been a very long time. Most of the sites I used to use got taken down so I'm lost af! if anyone has any links that can help me that's be awesome! also realized the lab in the library is 24 hours haha! x3 Mon, 27 Oct 2025 03:52:58 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1961347https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1961347https://web.archive.org/web/20090829044621/http://geocities.com/prettyflypunk//index.html  - Offspring  https://web.archive.org/web/20100106005932/http://misfitscentral.com/  - Misfits Mon, 27 Oct 2025 03:45:52 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1960238https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1960238I've recently started dating my online best friend. Oct 3rd. Uhm we've been close since about fall 2022 and talked everyday for a very long long time.  I didn't believe in online dating because I had done it before and it was just draining and humiliating. I always hated how fast people got into relationships especially online because then I'd just see them break up like 2 months later. Thats how ...Sun, 26 Oct 2025 05:12:25 +0000