Blog Entries by "camila" | SpaceHey

Life and politics (kind of)

Thu, 12 Mar 2026 21:11:01 +0000

Life has been decent lately. The U.S. has started bomb Iran with Israel, and I find myself in turmoil. Previously, I had mentioned that I wanted to create music as a living and it is still something I am passionate about. But I don't want to waste my college education, I find myself to be in an incredibly privileged position in life, and I want an education that can bring something positive in the...

loneliness

Wed, 11 Feb 2026 21:13:25 +0000

I am at college, and I am starting to realize that I have a big fear of being alone. I am alone a lot and I feel like im going insane. I must be in the presence of someone and I will sacrifice whatever to be in that presence. That means I neglect my school work to hang out with people because I rather not be alone. Im not sure how to combat this.

warframe

Tue, 03 Feb 2026 07:16:51 +0000

im back on warfare >. < I started playing like 2 years ago w my bf, but we ran out of free time to play. I have decided to play by myself cuz I need more hobbies. my goal is to make it to fashion frames/o wanting to jump. I heard that is a common experience for many players. I enjoy the game so far. im not very into video games, but im learning the mechanics well and ima trying to keep up w the lo...

I WAS REALLY CLOSE TO TWICE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 26 Jan 2026 21:23:58 +0000

ok on a posit6ive note in my life I saw TWICE!!!!!!! yes I went to the day 2 of the Seattle concert with my friend I saw katseye w. I bought the tickets and bc im broke I bought the cheapest ones which was still really expensive T.T My friend and I got there really early. Like an hour and a half early. We got lost in the stadium and tried to find our seats. We were entering an elevator when we h...

school update: its stressing me out!!!!!

Mon, 26 Jan 2026 20:57:39 +0000

I want to take my passion for music more seriously. I want to produce music and write songs, but my lack of experience and my knowledge of theory is frustrating. That and any shitty vocals are my biggest setback. I was looking into majoring in music to combat this, but the music majors are 4 years, im already two semesters into school and id be behind a year. I don't know what to do. I have to aud...

thank you Radiohead for this idea of a love song

Mon, 15 Dec 2025 07:19:42 +0000

distorted record scratches in an empty room where parents used to fight, but they closed that door used to be so crowded, now there's no one in sight I find it extremely hard to turn my back behind I'm here all alone, the silence is unbearable my body can't relax, there's something wrong a boy I met as a kid, from a crowded room I'd pick you again and again so there's no confusion I'm scared wel...

I SAW KATSEYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 10 Dec 2025 08:11:20 +0000

They were pretty cool guys..... My friend had an extra ticket and I got to go; for exchange I bought her a ticket to see twice :3 Manon wasn't able to preform due to her illness, so I was sad she I didn't get to see her, but everyone else was soooooo amazingg especially Lara :33333 Seeing Lara Raj made me remember why I love music and performing so much and I aspire to be a divine being on earth l...

Changing my major and challenging myself

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 22:43:06 +0000

I am changing my major. Maybe psychology, maybe music. I find myself wanting to live a fulfilling life and I fear I will be on my deathbed regretting my current decisions. I long to be a performer and I want to create emotional music that allows people to feel alive listening to it. I want to explore being human thought an auditory sense. I have terrible performance anxiety. The idea of playing mu...

Underwater

Wed, 19 Nov 2025 21:16:14 +0000

I often envision myself flouting underwater. The noise around me is drowned out as my ears fill with water. The world turns murky blue, color starts to fade away. I must go up for air. But I will enjoy this time underwater, where nothing really matters for a few seconds.