https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=4399746The most recent Blog Entries by the User "Pepper" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2043513https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2043513Im so tired of being fat Id be so pretty if i was just a little thinner, i know it But i cant  stop eating. I ate so much i literally felt sick today Its awful. I cant even puke, my Emetophobia cant handle it, its sent me into spirals in the past. And honestly i cant tell if i hate being for more or if i hate spirals more They last days, they blur everything...i guess it isnt as much a spiral as i...Tue, 06 Jan 2026 07:25:17 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2042648https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2042648I hate dopamine seeking. With a passion. Everything is just a waiting game until i can get my next boost of dopamine. It feels awful. I mean sure, in the moment, the doomscrolling, the attention seeking, the binges, the drugs, the cutting feels amazing ...but afterward im just left aching, tired, and angry. I dont know what to do. Ive tried damn near everything under the moon to keep from dopamine...Mon, 05 Jan 2026 19:20:15 +0000