https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=4482741The most recent Blog Entries by the User "Ev" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2139559https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2139559Why the fuck Do it have To listen To you Rant About Your new Fucking fling. And humour it Oh yeah I remember now! Because if I dont. You'll kick me out. And ill have  Nowhere Left To. Go.Mon, 06 Apr 2026 21:04:41 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2139530https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2139530God I exist.  God I exist. God I exist. Evelyn, I exist. Evelyn, I exist I. Evelyn. Exist.  Waow isnt that fucking ridiculous? Out of all the people I could have been,  A scientist, a politician, a philanthropist, a tyrant. I. Evelyn.  The self destructive little shit. Exist.  Huh. Sad.Mon, 06 Apr 2026 20:25:18 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2139279https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2139279Im no longer yours  Youre no longer mine But my attachment to you is disgusting  I wish I didnt hang onto your every word I wish I wasnt obsessed  I wish I didnt care what you thought about me I wish I didnt want to tear my pieces apart Just to build them back in a shape youd prefer I wish you liked me  But I dont even like you anymore  Maybe I do. Maybe im lying.  But how am I meant to know? You ...Mon, 06 Apr 2026 12:46:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2137409https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2137409I wish I could have what you have. I wish I could be what you are. I wish I was desired like you. I wish that care, that someone puts into you. That compassion  That desire to know.  That desire to understand  Thay desire to connect. I wish I could have that. But I also dont.  I dont want to be happy  I want to be hurt. I crave to be ruined. I need to be used. But im fucking sick.  ToSat, 04 Apr 2026 01:42:26 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2137393https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2137393I wish. I could HATE you. That would solve. Alot. If I could wake up tomorrow  And not feel a shred of attachment  If I could forget you  In an instant.  I would. But.  I cant.  And its not Even you anymore Its that lovely little pedestal  You put yourself on in my eyes. Purposefully making yourself my everything. Youve admitted to being a bad person  Ive accepted that youre shiSat, 04 Apr 2026 01:22:14 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2135779https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2135779I become conscious. My brain feels like mush. My thoughts collide and blur, Until that sweet sweet haze, My mindless oblivion, Decides to reclaim its throne. Atop my head A crown of thorns  A severed head  Detached from a body  I am untouchable  I am unbreakable  For theres nothing left. I am.  Divine. Wed, 01 Apr 2026 23:04:04 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2129509https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2129509I used to hate mirrors When I was a kid Thinking it was unnatural  To see what I did  The face staring back Never felt like my own I figured it would change  When I was considered grown. In a way it did  I got used to the sight  Of the creature it was, its suffering and blight. I tried to dress it up In suits and fancy clothes  But these brief highsTue, 24 Mar 2026 23:29:54 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2128612https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2128612I love you more than ive ever loved. And I need you more than ive ever needed. And I want you more than ive ever wanted. And ive never been more terrified, Of my own shitty patterns and behaviours. Of my own apathy towards everything,Mon, 23 Mar 2026 19:42:37 +0000