https://blog.spacehey.com/user?id=76802The most recent Blog Entries by the User "Calcifer ℧" on SpaceHeyhttps://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1897571https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1897571this shit got my buying a vpn so I can access SpaceHey, this the first time the laws straight up blocked me accessing content but I was already pissed off at age verifying myself to use redditSun, 31 Aug 2025 22:23:00 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1718541https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1718541It's going to be a stoner Summer, I can sense it. 3 days of college to go. Cudderisback. Always Striving And ProsperingSun, 22 Jun 2025 21:20:49 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1565342https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=15653422 nights back to back of getting hammered and I've spent all day today hungover. Not built for the sesh like I once wasSun, 27 Apr 2025 19:22:42 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1558724https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1558724Were people genuinely surprised when he said homophobic slurs? Have those people never listened to his music before? Why was that where people drew the line but not the blatant misogyny. I don't support his views btw I just enjoy his music and he is a good lyricist / MC and an icon in the DnB scene. People are just weirdThu, 24 Apr 2025 15:33:37 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1557404https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1557404Bands like AC/DC, Black Sabbath and Gun's and Roses will never be matched. They revolutionised Rock n RollWed, 23 Apr 2025 22:55:06 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1539664https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1539664I love the evenings / night don’t get it twisted but lately I’ve just been feeling really depressed when it gets late. And my sleep schedule is getting messed up. Going back to college is going to be hard asf if I don’t get it sorted.Wed, 16 Apr 2025 23:29:50 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1535704https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1535704I wrote, recorded and mixed an entire song this evening. And I had it done around 10pm. That makes a difference to the 2/3am drops I normally do. I actually think I'm getting a lot a lot betterMon, 14 Apr 2025 23:06:31 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1521258https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1521258The trauma I enduring being on two different wards was just as traumatising as when I had to get sectioned. And they offer no follow up, instead I got a court date. Punished for THEIR mistakes. The wait leading up to it was terrifying. How did I let myself get to that point. I don't blame myself for relapsing as soon as I was out as I wasn't ready to be discharged. Rushed out the door as fast as p...Wed, 09 Apr 2025 00:11:25 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1521207https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1521207I feel like my emotions are so unstable it's killing me. I can't use to hide them anymore and when the depression hits it tears right through me. I'm sad and feel empty. I just wish I could be more stable. More like an emotional train ride than a rollercoaster. At-least I cry now to let it out. I hate feeling like my emotions are being thrown back and forth like a pendulum. It's just me. I do this...Tue, 08 Apr 2025 23:44:16 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1518481https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1518481It's currently 4:41am. I wrote lyrics, recorded my vocals (poorly) and mixed a new track over about 5 hours - "Same mistakes". I was really proud of the lyrics but think I butchered the delivery. My sleep is now fucked. I still feel wide awake. One day it'll be worth itMon, 07 Apr 2025 03:44:15 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1515999https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1515999Pretty much all my classmates are at a house party and I couldn't go cos there was too many people. Spent all after-noon convincing myself people just don't like hanging out with me. But now I've got some Drum & Bass blasting and I'm pumped up idgaf. I tried to upload a promo video for my latest song on TikTok this afternoon and after spending atleast 7 hours over last night and thisafternoon on e...Sat, 05 Apr 2025 20:31:17 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1500556https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1500556Like what the hell I'm properly an adult and next year I'll be 20!!! Madness. I guess I've made it to adulthood. Time to become a rock n roll starThu, 27 Mar 2025 23:05:11 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1500538https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1500538I've been waiting for this moment for so long midnight could not come soonerThu, 27 Mar 2025 22:46:14 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1496935https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1496935Pretty much got another song written this evening just need to touch up the lyrics. Hoping I get an SM-58 for my birthday tomorrow so I can record on that and take my vocals to the next levelTue, 25 Mar 2025 18:23:26 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1471429https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1471429Every-time I start smoking again I remember how frustrated I get afterwards cos I feel super unproductive / unmotivated. I did some browsing on Beatstars and wrote some okay lyrics to a cool beat I found but I feel like they're not the best. Where did imotape. go, their beats were so fire. I wish I had friends to hang out with who were into the scene more. I just need company tbf, why do I keep is...Mon, 10 Mar 2025 17:28:24 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1470290https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1470290My days on using Tumblr may be coming to an end. Maybe I should just stop using social media completely, probably, but I know that’s not gonna happen anytime soonSun, 09 Mar 2025 23:12:23 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1467612https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1467612I'm at a bit on a musical brick wall but Ecstasy is still doing really well. I need to muster up some motivation to keep dropping. I think I've got some momentum now, atleast a little, which is crazy to say when I only started dropping songs in January and I've got 8k streams since then. That's actually crazy wtfSat, 08 Mar 2025 11:30:31 +0000https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1466096https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1466096I'm gonna try remember to actually use this, I hope I find some cool folk on hereFri, 07 Mar 2025 14:11:39 +0000